When night falls....

I will wack anyone who tells me again on how getting drunk and high can be so distressing and good. Stop cheating me can....I find absolutely no similarity nor likeness between my experience and this false impression. Instead, I felt terribly wasted,guilty and terrible to an extend that i promised myself, never to get drunk again in the midst of my drunkness.

I have always wanted to get drunk(Yes, because i Heard that it feels good) so, i always try to drink alot whenever there is a chance to do so, chalet, bbq, gatherings and outing. you name it. But because of my high tolerance for alcoholic drinks, i was never really close to getting drunk even thou i was always the biggest drinker among my friend.

So i smart alec lah, drank chivas shots, mixtures, vodka shots and red wine like there was no tomorrow. And there i was, acting perfectly normal and tried to send selig to the busstop. But thank God that i was stopped by PS and mich after several persuasion, because the alchohol took effects moments after he left, and thou i was sober and aware of what was happening around me, i had no control of my limps. God knows what will happen should i had see him down then.

I started to be pretty unconcious, yet sober at the same time. I went to the toilet wanting to shit. and shit happened when i was in there. i was shitting half way through, and i vomited all over the toilet floor, and good gracious, i semi-conciously tried to clear up, but knocked onto the walls several times, then i accidently broke his toilet seat, walked into the shower room of his toilet, took the shower head, wanted to wash myself up, but to no avail. Realizing that the toilet door was locked, i bearingly made it through that few torturous steps, opened the door, let ps in, and back to the shower room. and poom, i slammed onto the floor and that was it, i was totally strengthless, yet feeling helpless cos my pants was soiled with vomit. PS of course, came in only after i closed the shower room door, and there i was, pantless, strengthless and helpless. I even tried to pray to God that he will grant me strength to get out of the toilet, but i guess God's reply was that i deserve it for acting like a hero. That was when i promised, never to get drunk again.
And i slept my night, sleeping in the toilet. And in the midst of it, i kept apologizing to PS who was helping me to clear up my vomit cos i was really feeling very guilty.

Terrible hangover the next day, and realized that my handphone drowned with my pants. thank God PS's hairdryer saved its life.

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I find it really frustrating on the fact that i cannot multi-task, period.
For people who knows me when i am doing something, i won't get distracted, it will take umpless effort to try and get my attention. Be it when it comes to talking to a friend, using the com, watching the tv, doing my work, thinking and mediating or simply dazing.
And the frustrating part, when i sleep, i go into a state of deep sleep, alarms can't wake me up, it will take lots of effort for the alarm to get my attention, because i will be concentrating on sleeping then. HA.
I need to be able to multi-task for nuts, cos i am already not very efficient. And moreover, people complained that i am dao. and others are already thinking that i am not approachable.

ITS SO NOT TRUE.


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I was so boiling mad this morning, and it was really up my neck, for people who know me long enough, you should have never seen me mad before. and yes i am positive about this when i am typing this, But today, i really couldn't controlled myself, that i gave a really scary stared which i feel that its really the scariest that i had ever gave to anyone and together with it, i also raised my voice.:(
Kids are getting cleverer and more stubborn these days.
It is getting tougher. But thank God for sweet kids around. they made my day:).

And oh ya, i got to know this guy of my age today, and i tell you. He is from VJC and scored 9A1 and 1A2 for his O's and 6As for his A's. I chatted with him and realized that he is not a mugger, and the technique he taught me is, to "just understand the foundation."
He further on telling me that he had 3 ccas in school back then and never really studied.
There i was, wishing that i was half as clever, or rather, half as excelling as he did back in school.


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School is reopening on the week after next, and how time flies... i hasn't got myself a temp job. but my holiday was still, filled with things from back to back. Very taxing, but worth it.:):)
Having Orientation camp next week, but the question now still revolves around whether is my position in the camp still secured.
Otherwise, i need to sleep more for the whole of next week, and i need to meet up my friends!!!


And like any other post, i need to watch my spendings...
Most importantly, my workout, i need to stick to it,!!!

JAZZ AND PS.

"Impacting and sowing into people's life one at a time."
I realized that i whatever that we do, its not just about ME, that tells OTHERS how successful you are, its about how many OTHERS, that tells YOU, how important and impactful you have been.


Long and windy post. Good job to you if you made it this far.:)