When night falls....

For continously 2 years, i didn't have an enjoyable birthday.
Nonetheless, it's still memorable.
And i will definitely remember what has happened.

It turns out that, 28 of june is indeed, just like any other day.
Just that it means so much significant to me because it's a day when I see myself as a friend to someone else.
And because of that, my expectation rosed to the highest level, and that was when i found myself falling even harder.
I had been looking forward to this day's arrival,yet i just stumbled upon myself.
Time and again.
It was partly, my fault too.
For being such a spoiler,each time.

All in all, I still think that it's the thoughts that counts.
I really thank those that tried to celebrate it for me.
And those who wanted to celebrate it with me.
Last but not least,those who have celebrated it with me.
I will say that the credits still goes to those that planned throughly, although the plan was void due to some miscalculation, misunderstanding and misinterpretion done by both parties
Next, I must really thank those that whom i least expected,will buy a present for me.
Kc,eli,yiru and sam.
Finally, thank you C171,claudia and cheryl for celebrating my day with me.

1E2 cliques will be celebrating with tomorrow too.
And i guess after which,it will be the end of my 17th birthday celebration.
Following that, i will embark on my new working life, and due to that,I will definitely see less of my friends.
This is perhaps the final week in which i am still free.
And coincidently, my birthday falls on it.
Yet,little mentioned about this.
The people whom i had placed my expectation on, failed me.
Perhaps, this was the reason why didn't I managed to sleep well last night.

I am very particular when it comes to communication.
Because i feel that it's the most essential tool when it comes to building relationships.
So, i dread silence, and that when silence arises, i began questioning myself.
I certainly don't believe that having 24hrs per day, 2 friends cant even find 10 mins to chat with each other.
Kind of strange yea?
Most importantly, it reflects on how well the relationship is growing.
Nevermind, as time goes by, we will know.

Ahhh..i need to go for a jab for the starbucks job.
argh...i am kinda intimidated by the word "jab"
Cause you know, the last time i had a jab, was when I was in primary 1.

On top of that,even before receiving my first pay, i already $100+ dollars for my shoes, shirt and etc.
And now, i am kinda of broke,again!
Lets hope that starbucks wont con me,like what my previous company did to me.

I cant help, but to be disturbed by the fact that, school is reopening in 2 days time!
I have been slacking for approximately 12 days and its only till yesterday that i took notice to my undone assignments!
I took out my 101 design assignment and spent 1 hr drawing 11 nasty clocks before giving myself some silly excuses and went to sleep.
And miraculously, i slept exceptionally well and early last night,1am, considering the fact that i had been sleeping at around 5am in morning every single day during the term break because i cant get to sleep!
How sad is it for me,when it comes to doing assignments, i have so many excuses to why i should be doing them later.
I still have 90 more designs yet to be done.
By doing some mathematical calculation, if i take 1hr to finish 11 clocks, this means that i will need another 8.18hrs to finish that 90 clocks...aww...
Yet i have little or no sense of urgency at all.
To make this worst, i still have PRSP and Cmaths assignments.
And i will be out tomorrow for some briefing for my new job.

Thankfully, i met up with shimin and lindy earlier on this afternoon to get our CMSY assignment done.
Or not.
It's still half-way through,in the midst of processing.
I hope i will be able to finish them.

What a nice term break i had.
Instead of charging up,i have backslided.
And now,it seems like it will take double the effort to slide back.
This has always be the case.
You slide out,you find it harder to slide back in.
And likewise, choices have consequences,if that what you have chosen, you bear the consequences.

Well,at least,in the midst of school reopening,there's still something for me to look forward to.
If you know what i mean,lol.

I shall end here.
Bye.

Awww..I hate flu so much,now that i am having flu, i lost my sense of smell,and hence, the ablity to smell good food!!that's is just so sad for me.
And it's only till you are sick, then will you appreciate sneezing.
However, and thankfully, you dont have to smell dumpling, to taste the goodness of it..hahas.

Was pretty pissed off this morning before leaving home to find out that that bastard brother of mine brought mine MP3 out with him without asking my permission!!
Wth sia, he is always self-fish, yet always shameless.
Shit him, he deserve to die.

Anyway, met out with cheryl this afternoon and off we went to...
Marina Square.
Well, we had our lunch, shopped around, chatting around and slacked around before watching pirates 3, although I hasnt watch pirates 1 and 2 before.
Pirates 3 was still quite an entertaining movie.
it isnt a $7 gone to drain.
After the movie, we walked around marina square, then to bugis, because i was hoping that i am able to buy some clothes.
And she wanted to take a look at the new Charles and Keith in bugis junction.
She did saw what she wanted, but i failed to buy even one.
Due to my indecisiveness in choosing what to buy, we wasnt able to find any clothes thats suitable for me, and worst of all, we wasted lots of time and because of that, she was unable to collect her phone cause by then, it was already 7.30.
Met up with Kun before finding a place for dinner.
We spent quite some time trying to decide where to have our dinner too..=.=
After which, she went off to meet her brother, while me and kun, went to play tekken, then to his house.

Hmm..if my memory hasnt failed me,other then kun and wen jie,who are my cousins, it's my first time spending the whole afternoon going places out of tampines alone with a friend.
Other time, i will go out in groups of 3, if not more,
And to make this first time etch, it's with a girl.
Was pretty worried that things will get awkward because we might run out of topic to talk about.
But apparently, I am forever so talkative and random, that i will never run out of topic if you are willing to listen.
And we have so many things to talk about.
Hahaha..well, i was just pure worrying.

Tomorrow is our 4E4 gathering once again!
I am looking forward to it.
Although the orginal plan was aborted.
What matter most, isn't where we will be going.
Is that we are going to meet up really soon!
Gatherings will never be enough, if you regard them as friends.
Otherwise, it is superficial,and there's no point gathering, even once.

Had our 4E4 steamboat gathering last night at Marina South.
It was overall, a pleasant gathering and catching up for the 12 of us.
We are still the same old 4e4,sprouting nonsensical and abusive words at each other, and playing lame jokes.
I did enjoyed myself during the catching up session.
However, I was really disturbed by the fact that we were having our dinner,together with the lizards.
Half of the time during the dinner, there will be flies dropping from above.
I was also having this bad feeling that the lizards above me will convinently do their business after their meals.
I was being labelled as "very cartoon leh" by claudia because i was kinda afraid that it will fly onto plate,and down into my stomach.
Apparently, One stupid fly really flew onto my plate,and got itself trapped under the many many layers of oil on my plate.
Hahaha,stupid fly.
And now, you know how unhealthy and hygeinic marina south's food are.

After the dinner, we went to the nearby arcade, slacked there awhile ,before making our way back.
Some of them went to some cafe, while I went home, cause i was covered by some "Fragrance".
And i was feeling rather sick.
But still, i had fun.

For those that wasnt able to make cause you have something on, don't worry you are forgiven.
And there's always a next time.
We might be visiting the zoo next tues,be sure to come ya?

Well, for those that were able to make it, yet chose not to.
If there's a concrete, if not brick wall near you, bring your head forcefully to it.
Bang it, till ur forehead tears and bleeds,after which rub the bleeding would against the brick wall,till the would deepen to the extend that you will be able to see your skull.
And wash it with salt water.
Record the whole process down, and send it to me.
If at the age of 17, you are still playing some silly hatred, prejudice or "you dont go I also dont go" game,and that proving to me that 4e4 is ranked under your own pride,dont ever come telling me that you miss us.
I will smile gracefully into your eyes, and ask you to go and die.
And if you think that we will be affected by your presense,I am sorry to inform you that we are not.
If i sound too harsh, i see no need in apologizing.
Thats how angry I am.
Zhi liang and claudia spent their time and money trying to get the whole of 4E4s together,yet there are some unappreciative people like YOU that chose to fly us aeroplane giving us a last minute notice.

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Anyway, I went for an interview just now at the Starbucks outlet in Park hotel orchard and i managed to get the job!
Hooray!
The reason given to me as to why I get the job, is because i have a very nice smile.
I wont deny it, cause it's pretty much TRUE!
Dont you think so too?
Will be starting next week i supposed.
The pay isnt alot,4.80 per hr, but it's good enough lah.
Furthermore, i have a direct bus there.
So, whats there to lose?
Now, with my newly increased allowance,and the salary.
I wont be meeting ends meet anymore!!!

I foresee that i will be very busy in the days to come.
But it's really time for me to step out of my comfort and stop slacking already.

Well, thats all that i have got to update you guys.

And for those that haven do my true friend test located under my sidebar,please do so right now.
Muahahhaa.

The following is quoted from kun's blog.
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KWS.. whats that?.. its just a acronym for Kun,Wen,Soon...

Haha basically they are my cousin.. and we call ourselves KWS... haha but now it have been changed... it became WKS... because... "Wen" does not call "Soon" out and "Soon" does not call "Wen" out so only through "Kun" or otherwise know as the almighty majesty...They will meet up... Haha ..

I am like a middle men.. cause They 2 Dua-Bai.. tsk tsk tsk..

Me is almighty majesty also not that dua bei lo... tsk tsk tsk .. jialat huh?.. anyway just a random post.. cause i am too bored.... Tomorrow i should be going escape with KC and friends =D haha see ya
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Well..I was sharing with him why didnt me and wen jie meet out after so long, and we realise that that's the way we are!
Me and wen jie, despite the fact that we hasnt been meeting for ages, wont intiate or call each other to arrange for meet ups.
Cause thats the way we are, its emdedded in our character.
For almost all our meet out, it's through kun,being the middle person, another scenario would be the both of us suddenly feel like singing k box so much that we cant take it anymore,then we would call each other.
Otherwise, we will have to wait for kun to arrange.

The middle person thing doesn't only happens to K.W.S,otherwise known as W.K.S,cause kun now, has become the middle person,It also happens to my outing with friends.
I hardly intiate for a meet up, or ask people out.
It's either someone asks me out, or i will just stay at home.
Even chats on msn, i dont intiate.

Nope, I am not acting like a big shot,
It's just that, thats the way I am.
Frankly, i have no idea why i am behaving this way.
Ha...Not that i don't give a damn.
Just who i am.
Or perhaps, i am too shy!

P/S:Anyway, i Strike out the almighty majesty in his post.

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Currently, I am ADDICITED to "When you're gone" By avril lavigne
It's sooooO nice can?

When You're Gone Lyrics



I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

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Anyway, I saw a retard, no-life tekken player in CS earlier this evening.
He spent $15 challenging himself!
Because the machine wasnt occupied, he switched between both seats and hit his own character.
To make the whole retard process worst, all he did was simply was to do abit damage to his own character, and waited for the time to get over.
ARGH!me and kun waited for dont know how long, before we can FINALLY challenge him.
So retard can?
The waiting process made us felt like we are one of him,and we just kept staring at each other cause we really thought that he was sort of a retard.
And thinking of that now, makes me feel like a retard too.

Had CMSY paper this morning.
It was supposed to be a one and a half hours paper and i finished it in less then half an hour.
LoL, i am not expecting myself to score really well for that paper.

Well, term test is over!
Wooo..Our term break has officially started!
Muahahahahahaha.

Time for me to rest!

And it's time for some catching up guys!

Let me first take a nap, before deciding on what to do later.

Why am i only able to socialise actively with some friends,yet not all?
Despite the fact that, we are all having our term test.
Never the same.

Reminds me of what claudia said this afternoon.

It gets really frustrating when talking to someone who likes to give a word answer to a long question and hoping that we will continue the conversation.(Well, you wont know if one wanna continue the conversation anot,i am assuming that they want.)
Cant blame me for communication barriers and that people start losing contact.
What to do, I am more laid back.
And that people dont intiate, neither will I.


We are marking an end to our term test with Computer system tomorrow!
Although, it's our final paper, and i am pretty much looking forward to whats after it.
But I am not doing what i should be doing at this moment!
I am currently not studying, cause i am too tired.
Having the lack of concentration, due to the photohunting.
And, i am burdened..
Flunk all, flunk merrily.
It doesn't matter anymore.
Because all along, i knew i won't do well for my computer system.
Passing is more then enough for me.
Ya,i am not aiming high enough.

I am forsaking my struggles, i am not gonna get bothered by it anymore.
Communication bullshit.
It takes two hands to clap.

Well, however and whatever, i am still looking forward for our term break.
Because,we need to rest to cover a longer distance.
Haha, i need more rest!!!
Well, perhaps its because i am lazy.

I better stop typing before my lazy eye or what strabbulus,whatever it's spelled,gets worst.
I think i am straining my eyes pretty much, and i cant think properly right now.

I now have a hunch that I am on the verge of losing a bond with a friend.
Well, my hunch,are not hunches without any evidence.
I see it,feel it and experience it.
Most importantly,You might have felt that too.

Well, this is the first time ever, i am doing an online survey.
So i thought, I should make it known to everyone!HAha!
haha,so here it goes~


NOT READ THE WHOLE
BULLETIN!!!
JUST QUICKLY COPY AND PASTE.
DON'T SPOIL IT
Name 11 people you can think of
right
OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD.
Don't read the questions underneath
until you write the names of all 11
people.
This is a lot funnier if you actually
randomly list the names first. No
cheating!

1. Wen Jie
2. Kun
3. Kian hao
4. Zhiliang
5. XiongSheng
6. Cheryl
7. Claudia
8. Valerie
9. Wanying
10.Xuan Hui
11. Kok Kian

DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU
FILLED UP
THE TOP!!

HOW DID YOU MEET #4?

He was my classmate in secondary
one,three and four.
=.= He was shorter then me by half a
head back then.
And now?...
LoL,i just recalled a short play that
we did in chinese lesson in secondary
one.That was hilarious.

DO YOU LIKE ANYONE IN HERE ?

In fact, i LOVE THEM.


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU
HADN'T MET #1

If I hasn't met her,I won't be
behaving like how i am behaving today.
She taught me what lameness and joy is!
She brought colours to my live man..
I hasnt seen her for quite some time
already..
Hopefully, i will meet up with her
during my term break.=)
CAUSE I MISS HER!!!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #2
AND # 6 WERE
GOING OUT?

Hahahaha..Now thats funny.
I will definitely poke my nose into it
And question them till they
surrender!!!

how old is #8?

She's turning 17 this year.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #5
CONFESSED
HE/SHE LOVE YOU ?

HAHAHAHA!!!not possible, he and
me,100% straight..
Well, the only possible scenario that
he might confess to me is that he went
bonker cos some girl rejected him.
Even so, i doubt he will do that.

WHO'S #10's BEST FRIEND?

Hmmmmmmm...Elizabeth?
Or me!?!?LOL

HAVE YOU EVER EATEN WITH #1?

YA.DUH..We ate countless of meals
together to an extend that we grew fat
together.
But the answer would be a no if u had
asked whether have we ever exercised
together before?

DO YOU MISS #2?

Eh...nope, we see each other almost
every week.LOL
Even so, i miss him at times lah.
Cause we used to stare at each other
everyday.

WHO'S #6 DATING?

oh oh...I am not too sure.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #
11?

Hmm..very clever, and have a mind of
his own.
Hard to read,hardworking and hard...???
But sadly,he's busy!
Wth,we hasnt seen each other for
months despite the fact that he is
just living opposite my block!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #
9?

Haha,She's a very nice girl.
Hmm..Very helpful,courageous and bold.
Well,who knows, you might see her
carrying a gun chasing robberer on the
street in the
future.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #4
AND #7 WERE GOING
OUT?

I will feel sad, cause they never
inform me about it!!!

WHO DOES #2 LIKE ?

He loves tidiness and good food(his my
cousin,thats why).
LOL.He love his looks and most imptly,
his present hair!!!

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN INSIDE #8'S
HOUSE?

ya!!!just yesterday!
And i found out that her house fridge
is packed with CHOCOLATES!!!

WOULD YOU MARRY #3?

LOLOLOL..is gay marriage is even
allowed in singapore.?
WELL...i still prefers him to be my
very good friend...Cause firstly, we
will never attract each other in any
way,2ndly, we are not gays and
lastly..and..
Most imptly...

HE'S OBSESSED WITH GIRLS!!

DO YOU LOVE #10?

Nope..cos i only like her as a friend.
Hahaha..Moreover, she doesn't loves
me..T.T

EVER SLEPT IN THE SAME ROOM
AS ANY OF
THE NUMBERS?

ya...=.=, I even slept on the same
bed with 1,2 and 5!
WOah...Just pure sleeping..nothing
else.
well, but i have to say, it's cause i
have a very comfortable cursion stomach to lie on!
Cause 1 and 2 are my cousins..thats
why.
Well, as for 5, he was kind enough to
lend me his floor when i needed one.LOL
Oh ya, i think 4 used to spent the
night together with me at 5's hse
before too.
Oh..3 too...Just that he dont do the sleeping.
No, not that i snore, it's just one of his "Weird habits"

DO YOU TRUST THEm?

Yes.definitely

REPOST THIS AS:
CAN YOU NAME 11 PEOPLE!

ARGH!

I WANNA KILL THAT BLOODY BASTARD.

Well, i had just submitted my WDS proposal.
I feel so much relieved, now that it's submitted.
I can spend all my attention on next week's term test.
I just hope that those motivation will really push and pull me through.

Poly is so busy, it just seems that there are unlimited projects to be done.
These project keeps me really occupied, at least, there's always something for me to do.
And keeps me from thinking too much.

But i don't know why is there still this emptiness in me.
I seems to have lose the presense of friends in my life.
I missed the crucial moment when my classmates socialise.
Many times, perhaps i was too reserve, and laid-back.
They are beginning to form their own sub-groups already, and they have bonded.
Yet for me, i am still on the same spot, as where i was when we started poly.
No friends, no companion..No bondings.
ahhhh...I feel so lonely.

Hahahahaha...never mind, i am strong enough to pull through this.


I have nothing much to say.