When night falls....

After what hao said just now.

Yea, probably sometimes, i am too focused over what i wanna say, and that i just speak right from my mind, i didn't even realize that i have gone wrong, or perhaps, the phrasing for my dialouge, make it seem that i am proving myself right.
Yea...

Deep apologize for that, but what i wanna say is, i didnt mean that, neither am i staying in the line where i wanna prove to everyone that yes i am right.
Hahaha, and i don't labelled as pouring out words of wisdom, because i don't think i am wise enough to do that, i was simply sharing what i feel.
Sorry huh!

But i do meant it of good intention thou.

:D

Really shagged.................................................

But on a happier note, I am officially freed from work!

I seriously need to rest and get back my energy, hasn't been able to substain a conversation lately, probably because i get regularly mind blocks due to tireness.
Hahaha.

Catch wall-e with hao and liang yesterday at PS.
And its super cute and super nice, your should catch it as well!

And yea, i felt so cheated yesterday.
Because i bought a nestle ice cream for 3.30 at the 7-11 near PS when it usually cost only $1 at the 7-11 near my house!
Talk about overpricing and cheating customer, 7-11 is darn good at it.
hahaha.

And after some bloghopping.
I realised that meeting someone is no longer necissary anymore.
Because its no longer vice-versa, like how it used to.

Oh yea! Angel and mortal game has ended.!!

And yea, i am also very excited to reveal my mortal.
She's none other then.... THE BIG EYES MABEL!
Although there are plenty of room for improvement, but i am still proud of myself!

And and and, i just wanna take to opportunity to express my gratitude to my most beloved and the cutest angel that you can possibly ask for.
Rachelle Cullen/Zhou. LOL

Thank you huh... for being such a sweet angel!:) But for that gugu and lame way to ask kathryn to send me that message was totally unnecessary lo, like i am so dumb like that. Hahaha
But yea, thank you for everything that you have done for me, and i love the chicken chop. LOL

And i also wanna thank kenny, kathryn and may.
Love you guys just so much.:)

With the angel and mortal game ended.
Let this not be an end for us to continue being a blessing to others yea?
We don't need to be in a game to show others how much we love others right?
:):)

Counting down 2 days! and i am freed from work.
It's slacking time and time to have some fun!, i have cleared everything next week.


But i am quite disappointed lah......... because i won't be able to visit school later of work.

I wanna watch movies and most importantly....................
MEET SOME PEOPLE UP.

Wah, thanks to kian hao, i can get a good laugh before going to sleep.
Buay tahan, i find this damn funny. LOL



And yea, i find this song damn nice to, thannks to kenny. hahaha


And yea, off to sleep, gonna wake up early tomorrow.!
Enjoy the videos!

The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again (x9)

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

Ohhh...Ohhhhhh

How stupid can i get.

I was shopping for a gift at TM's minibits just now when one of the sales person approached me to see if she is of any help.
Despite declining her offer a couple of times because i was quite indecisive towards what to buy, she persistently came and asked the same question.
So on the final time that she came, i didnt declined her because i was too nice and polite to do so, but that conversation didnt last for more then 2mins before i hastely left the store.

SP: Your getting for a friend?
Me: Yea, but i have no idea what she likes cos we are not exactly that close.
SP: Oh,( started showing me some princess neckless design).

I took a glimse and tell her that its ok, i will just continue looking.

SP: Hmm..How old is she?

And probably because i was simply too tired, and too pre occupied with buying gift.
I replied.

"Younger than Me"

The sales person, stunned for a moment, and mumbled.

"But I don't know your age..."

Upon hearing, i too stunned, as i began realising the mistake that i have made, and i left the store, embarrassed.

=.=

Wth.. like what i have said, i was probably just too tired, i am not stupid. hahahaha.


But that didn't entire spoiled my mood lah, i just continue walking around TM and cs and thank God, i finally bought something.

And that touring, makes me realised that i am really not a fan for shopping.



And work today was super, pointless.
I walked around SGH from 9.30am to 6pm and all i did was walking and more walking, and visiting wards after wards just to look at beds, and not doing anything to it.
In the midst of walking, i was huming the part in stop and stare that goes;
"Steady feet don't fail me now" repeatingly because i thought i was gonna collasp anytime soon then.
And despite the nurse telling me that some of them are faulty, i couldn't help them service it because servicing wasn't my scope for the day.
So yea, they were kind of disappointed. hahahahaha.

So i basically walked the whole day. period.

But anyway......................

Counting down 2 days, hopefully.
And i am freed from WORK.

I shouldn't have started work so soon, i haven even slacked enough!
But to view it from another angle, when i get freed from work, i can slack with $$$!

So yea, i am supposed to work on saturday, half day.
I hope i will be able to get off. LOL


its holiday already!

And i tell you, although its the same old thing thats said over and over again every vaccasion.
But i just wont get sick of it.

Because i really miss your lah!

And specifically, my buds!
:):):):)

See you guys really soon!

BGR brings trouble.

Yes, its sweet when you are in it, but its hurts the hell of out you when you are out of it.
And it just like an equation, the sweeter it is, the more you feel the hurt.

It's very complicating, very complex, its like, when two people get together, the different different attributes that each of them carries will start to react and burst off into an reaction.
And the number of reactions is probably uncountable.
As an bystander, never ever get yourself too involved, your set of attributes will probably stir up another set of reactions making it even more complex, or otherwise, their set of reactions will probably stir up a reaction in you, affecting your mood as well.

Nevermind if you don't get what i mean.

I won't be able to relate to how they feel, but i know it hurts.
But i don't know how much to an extend it actually hurts, because i hasn't been through that before.
What i know is, you are accountable to your ownselves, I can give advises, i can lend a listening ear, i can encourage, i can lend a shoulder for people to cry on, i can be there.
But yea, thats all that i can do.

And wow, there's so many of such problems going on.

I tell you, i vow not to be the the guys that i have seen, never.

P.S: i am not angry, nor frustrated, nor pissed.



Yea, i am having dbis paper tomorrow!!

Congratulation Wen Jie for graduating from SOT!!!


And I wanna thank my sweetest angel for the mug, I love it. Better then my starbucks tumbler. LOL


There's no church tomorrow!
Feel kind of weird to stay home on a sunday.
Probably spend it resting and mugging for some DBIS thing.

And wow, i had a really long day.
In fact, a really tiring day.
But hey, its a saturday, and thats what its all about, tireness!


And i met up with bear, regarding my resignation.
After talking to her, i reconsidered again.
I know, i am being very fickle-minded.
But because she didnt want me to leave, she offered an alternative for me to work one shift per alternate week.
It's indeed a very good alternative for me to think about, because it definitely won't eat into my studies nor anything else by simply working 2 shift per month, and most importantly, taking away guilt and tireness thing, i actually do enjoy working!
I am gonna think about it again.

To michelle, i wanna see that smile on your face yea? hahaha

And lastly, i just love W143.


When pastor alex abraham did the impartation to us just now. I was praying strong, and felt His presense upon me.

I had this vision.
The eight of them, getting saved. that significant eight, brings me great joy and motivation!
And, i saw myself excelling in my studies, and leading people, as a leader.
I believe, and i'll press on, i will continue praying, and pray that i will break all negative mindset.
I trust in God for his destiny upon my life, and i will glorify him.
Amen.:)

Wanted to wake up at 4.30 for morning prayer, but i totally missed that alarm, and woke up at 7.30 instead.
And with that, still, i was so tired that i crawled out of my bed with my mind still very much asleep.
Walked with my eyes semi-closed to the bus stop.
And slept in the train while standing.=.=
Totally shagged.

Thank God i made it just in time.



But i should really start changing my mindset, be positive and change my perspective towards this issue.
i really should.

Still have two months.
and only 2 months.

The devil will eventually use what you love and use that against you.
But i know, God has a plan.
And its for the greater good.

But its just when...........

This is crap, i have been trying to upload some photos i found for the past 3 hours.
And i am bombarded with errors after errors.

I want to blog on 20/08/2008, but its already 12.08 now.
And its all thanks to blogger...........................................

This is lame, i am sleepy, i am going to sleep, i hope i can wake up at 4.30 later.

Lenghty post

As i was walking out the train just now, i happened to see a couple hugging each other.
Yea, nothing special, you will get to see this anywhere if you walk with your eyes open.
But what really caught my attention wasn't the fact that they were hugging but what caught my attention was their size, they were both, not very skinny.
And the intial thought that came to mind was;
"Aiya, sure not true love"
And that is it, i had just sterotyped.
Then, after much thought, i started to look at myself.... not very skinny either.
Although its a undeniable fact that has been affecting me pretty much over the years, but strangely, at that point of time, that thought never really cross my mind.
And that was why, i began to deepen and that point of pondering leads me to think many other things which i shall share with your as follow.

It makes me realize that its no longer just, "its not very good to sterotype, you are being unfair to that particular group".
Its now even more,, to an extend that its causing our life to be even more complex.

To take me for example, that " aiyah, sure not true love" sterotype, literally change my pespective towards love as a whole because the reason why do i really think that way is because I think that people will just settle down for people of the same standard, often left with no choice, or out of desperation and that causes me to want to break free from that thinking.
Which frankly, it drifted me further away from the point of finding someone you love, and now introducing many other different factors which is not necissary in the first place.
Its kinda hard to understand and even harder for me to elaborate but to put in simply.
If its me, if i ever come across a person i have interest in, and that person happen to be the same size as me. hahahha, i will probably ask myself whether is it out of desperation, and that i am just trying to find someone to love, and that is why i am just grabbing anyone that comes by at that moment.
And if i ever consider the sterotype that as stated above, i will probably give up because i trust that my sterotype is valid and leads to think its true, and that nothing will come out of the relationship because, its....not what i wanted.?

The point here is, that sterotype is no longer just being unfair to the group, its affecting my judgement as well.

The sterotype is wrong in the first place, does that mean that two not very good looking people, when get together, simply equates that they are just desperate?(ah, and that leads to another sterotype yet again)
It goes the same to two very good looking people getting into a relationship. Birds of the same feather must flock together? must that sterotype determine that society today?
And yet another sterotype that when a good looking person and a not so good looking person, must that then, be true love? Why can't it be out of sympathy?
Now, its making love even more complex.
And thus, affecting our judgement, our belief and our lifes and making already hard to decide sitution, harder.
Don't tell me you hasn't stared at the above mentioned couples, and making comments about them before.(oh look i am sterotyping again)
(I know, this argument is going nowhere, because either ways, its all so wrong, and nothing is coming out from this.)

And to elaborate on my point with another illustration, say, if you see a girl dressing skimply on the streets today, you will probably think that she's an ah lian, and whatever thing that comes to your mind.
You go home, and realises that, she's your son's girlfriend, or your daughter's friend, i suppose i need not have to elaborate further on what you will do.
And probably, start making your son and daughter's life difficult because you are afraid that they will end up like the girl, now that you know that they are in bad company.
Which prove my point that you are now doing unnecssary things that that birthed off from your sterotype.

And and and, many many more sterotypes that causes us to do things which wasn't meant to be in the first place.
Like, you see a two bangladeshies holding hands, you avoid them.
You think that people who have good results, rich and good looking, you avoid them.
All china person are loud, you hate them.
AH, people who wear black, long messy hair, walk with head facing down, are emos, you run away.
And lastly, and most commonly seen these days, if you child don't study, you will fail in life, then parents starts stressing their kid and kids get stress thus causing stressed parents, even more stress, it goes in a circle.
Its kind of becoming part of our life already.
Frankly, I am a sterotyper, i sterotype whenever, and whatever, just give me a cue, i will be able to retrieve a sterotype, and they are really bad.
But now, i think i should restructure my views towards things again.

The point here is, next time you wanna decide on something, consider the fact that it might be a decision that birth off from a sterotype that you have.
Its no longer just happy happy sterotype only ok... you are making your life revolving around it.

But i also believe lah, all of the above sterotypes can be good in a way.
Because at least, they give you a mind on your own, without sterotypes, a society will probably be dead and boring, because everyone thinks the same.

Hahahahaha, if you are still reading at this point, you are awesome.
Its not hard to digest what i have mentioned above, neither is it hard to agree upon.
But you see, its my ponders, and its kind of messy, the points are all over the place,


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And to you, i hope that you are feeling ok, thou i know that you are not, because i know if you have really loved, you will feel that same amount of pain that inflicted back onto you as well.
You probably won't know it, and which either case, probably too egoistic to admit it or don't think its worth kicking up a fuss about, and i don't wanna go own asking you already.
But i believe, you are definitely much stronger, and when it comes to moving on, you are darn good at it.
Whatever it is, what i have said, are not just comforting words to comfort you, but i really do mean every single thing that i have said.
Hahahaha, I don't normally know how to comfort a guy you see...
Whatever it is, i will be supporting you all the way!!
But please, don't be so egoistic and don't ever think that crying and getting sad is an symbolisation that you are weak.
I have seen guys cry before, you bet. hahaha.
You might not find what i have said through lah, but i am truely concern, and thats my 2 cent worth of advise.:D


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Randoms, i think there's a couple of things that i am gonna talk about pretty soon....


And lastly, bear called, and she wanted to do my performance review..
But she started asking about my studies, which makes me find it doubly hard to tell her that i wanna quit.
I just couldn't tell her, because i felt that guilt striking me.

Old Pictures.








I love reminiscing because it brings me joy whenever i start recollecting the jokes and things that i used to do in the past, and its also why i keep a blog.
And this doesn't mean that i still lives in the past, there's a different between living in the past and reminscing the past you see.
Which is also why, when eariler on this year, when i told the world i have deleted my previous blog, i didn't exactly did that.
I simply changed the link to guanbs.blogspot.com and locked it so that it will be gone forever, in a way.hahaha.
I chanced upon it just now and as i begin to look through the things that i have written.

I can finally, FINALLY relate to kun,xiong, liang,hao and whoever, that I WAS REALLY VERY EMO BACK THEN.
Its really those kind of typical emo kid that goes;
"I think i am a failure, i think i am gonna die, i think my life sucks" and the list goes on.
It's super duper downright emo lahhhhhhhhhhhhh, and i feel so ashame for that. ha
And as i begin to look through further down, there were also rational times when I was just enlightened, and even thou that person is me, i was almost re-enlighten once again.
I mean, come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, why was it that bad.
I cannot even relate to what i was feeling back then, i dont see the point now to why did i reacted that way then, i mean..........why was i even emoing over certain things. ?
Haha.

Then, i also noticed the number of gramatical errors that i had in my all of my entries!
Not that its that good now, but its certainly much better than back then!
NO WONDER I SCORED A C6 for my olevel english.
Now that i know why, i don't think i will ever start grumbling over my results again.
If you ask me, the examiner that marked my paper was probably closing one eye while marking, because if it is me, i will probably fail the person.

And i came across a edfiying joke that ah kun made years ago, which i still find it damn funny today.
It goes;

"I am a pig...
Made of Gold, thats why i am worth so much"

=.=|||

You guys probably won't be able to relate why do i think its so damn funny, but its just so damn funny lo... hahaha, and i don't know why is it that funny.

Even the beatle and apple joke, thou its already over the season, when i think back, its still funny. Haha.


There was also heartwarming times when i began expressing how much i love my friends which i no longer do so these days.
Which makes me realise how daring i was back then, and how egoistic i am right now.
People whom used ot read my blog will probably know how much i love them.
Kao eh, my hairs are all standing now.
But well, i do mean what i have said you know!
hahaha.

And to contrast, i think more back then than now, thou pessimistically, but still beats the amount of brain juice that i use these days.
I obviously don't know whether is it good or bad, but one thing for sure, it gives me more things to blog about.
To squeeze out one entry is as hard as getting my ass off the chair and go jogging.
But i blogged almost every single day back then, i don't know where did the inspiration all comes from, but they are just there 283 entries. GOD.

And hahahahaha, i don't know what to say now already.
The point of this entry is to.

SHare my joy!

And despite saying all of the above, i am still cool. LOL

Lastly, it still brings me great pleasure when i read this entry, cited, 26 october 2007.

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"Actually, I was thinking of dedicating to whole post to Wen jie and ah kun.
For being the greatest cousins in the world.
But after reading wen jie's entry, i have decided to backed out.

For one, whatever that i wanted to say, she said it all.

For two, her english is more powderful then me.

ANd lastly, somethings can never be expressed into words.



Her entry.

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managed to meet up with boon today..=) in jurong east.. his laptop got some problem
u see. so, he needed to the the acer place to get it fixed.. didnt managed to meet up for very long as i had to rush for meeting at river walk.. a pity. we had only about 1 plus to 2 hours together.. but love the time spent with this guy. =)
we are planning to meet up next week.i hope we will make it happen..

what can i say.. but i really love boon and kun so so so so much.!
to me, they are even closer to me than normal cousins. they are just like my own flesh and blood brothers. maybe many people cannot comprehend our relationship.. after all, we do seem so close.. not like normal cousins. but that's the way it is between us. we are that close. hmm. after all, we really grew up together..
tonight, i feel just like boon. wondering, years from now, will we still stay the way we are now?
as we progress with our own lives, will we still stay close?
i hope we do.
because there are no brothers quite like them in the whole world.
we went through so much together. you can say thick and thin. in the most literal sense. we grow fat together, we slim down together. there can be days we just spend a lot of $$ together, hang out, and all. there can be days the 3 of us survive on 5 dollars.. we shared everything. we even shared the same bed. food. drinks. clothes.(only home casual clothes la!), we lent each other handphones? bags, money, mp3s, and so much more.
there is total trust that we share with each other almost everything. it is just so easy to share things with them.
we can talk about everything under the sun. everything.

i really treasure them so much so much.. i wish that i will never lose them. never never.
i wish that through our days of youth, adulthood, parenthood, to the days we grow old,.. we'll never be apart.
i wish. even when we die, we'll go to the same place, up there and not down there.
i wish i wish i wish.

there is nothing i wouldnt do for them.
my dearest kun and soon.
i love you guys.
hope we'll never take each other for granted. our close friendship never ends.
one day, when we have our own husbands and wives, we will not grow apart.
our children will be just like us. so close as well..
i wish i wish.

my wishlist:
K.W.S will never be disbanded.
K.W.S will live happy lives.
bros and sis forever--eternity.
=)
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Just to add on to what she have said.

I believe that apart from the thick and thin.
We have this mutual trust in us.

There were nights when we just poured out our problems to each other and ended up not having enough sleep simply because it took up the whole night.

Perhaps thats what soulmates are for.



And there were also nights when we played puzzle bubbles and monopoly together so that we can just spend time doing something together.

Ha.



And there was also time when we sit and lamed for a couple of hours without any thing achieved.
But certainly, it brought joy.



Come to think of it, i did really took them for granted many times.

Yet, they didnt blame me.
They played an essential part in my life and contributed to pretty much of who i am today
They are that great..





I am just glad, to have K.W.S in my life.
Even thou we hasnt been meeting up lately, we will stay as close as ever.
Distance and time was never a problem, it wasnt and it will never be.
So 10 to 20 years down the road, we will still stay as close yea?



Ha, and we came into an agreement that next time, when we are choosing our future mate, he/she must accept K.W.S, else, they FAIL!



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Many great people in my life that if given a choice, i would never wanna lose.



Guys, still remember this?



I still has it with me whenever i go.
Its always in my bag, together with my laptop. ha.
And i still has the note the claudia wrote for me during graduation in my wallet.



They never fails to bring me a smile whenever i am reading through what that has been written on the coloured paper.



Looking through what that has been written.
They are heart warming.

Things like "Your zeus and phantom lancer always own me one!"
Reminds me of the time, i totally thrashed GX because he was is always the feeder.


And, "TKD king, must kick more then nicer figure then more shuai"(Took me quite long to read his plagirism)
Wah seh, people now muay thai king liao seh.
Then everytime say i useless cos always skip training.
But i think that time he also nothing better to say lah.
So random.
Hahaha, Please be more in depth next time.


Ha, and, "dont be a glutton!, 60kg ok? if not treat at sakae ah!"
A single sided promised made by chero.
I am still trying not very hard to achieve it thou.


And I know, I am a "good listener" claudia, hahahaha.
And ya, i know, You will miss my singing=).


And valer ah, i didnt know you saw the serious me when having tuitions with me leh.
Perhaps, i look the most serious when i am sleeping.


KK has nothing much to say to me cause i am just living opposite his block.
But still appreciate me for always listening to him after jogging.
That was like many millions years ago.


And lastly, "known him since sec 2, wasnt really on good terms."
He always like to create random jokes which "gets into my skin"
And i still remember that particular moment when he wrote this.
Because on the paper he wrote,(you just bought your KFC meal and had just prayed).
I think the only person that any one can associate these random jokes with will be ah hao.



I didnt know that people of 4e4 knows me as SUperstar thou.
Because majority started off the message with.
"Hey Superstar!"
Haha, How i wish ah!


By the way, you know what joey randomly wrote?
"You like to sleep, eat ..."
I almost vomited blood.
That sounds so not like a farewell messege lo!
But luckily, he added
"and you sing well"
That rather, appeals me greatly.



But really, credits goes to valer hui qi and some other not known girls for compeling them together.
It really means alot to me=)


Although some of you might not even recall writing all these things.
But it's there, for my pleasure.
haha, sounds so wrong."

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End of reminscing, i am gonna quit starbucks soon.
And i am working at sgh tomorrow as a temp service technician, and my job scope involves... servicing HOSPITAL BED.
And just when i was all ready to go for jogging, it started raining.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

And as for my day, it wasn't exactly that fruitful, i practically slacked the whole day.
But that was really what i needed, dota, watching tv and typing a decent entry.

K... shall end here.

Had a really early night yesterday, slept at around 8pm and I only woke up at 11am just now.
Feel so recharged. but kinda sleepy still, probably because i have slept too much.

And its holiday already!
Yes, its somewhat self-proclaim, but you see, i am only having ONE pathetic paper, so what for stress myself over it?

But this self-proclaim holiday isn't that good after all, because i am the only one self-proclaiming that its holiday, others are all either rushing their projects, studying for their papers or school had just started.

So to the people out there, ALL THE BEST for your papers, projects and school!

Caught Sp3cial the musical at the Raffles Jubilee Hall yesterday, and the it was awesome, almost moved me to tears.
And we took a couple of photos:)


Rachel, may, cherron, kenny and me:)




The 5 of us with Chen Di ya. ya... hahaha



The stars of the musical. Nelly and nerdy boy. LOL



May, rachel Cullen and me:)



Kenny bro:)



Kenny, me rachel and may:) hahaha





And last but not least, Pastor Tan!

Slacked around at mac, and jogged to meet wen jie at raffles city to help her carry her heavy bag and walked back to mac.
Jogged home from interchange aftermath.
Did my projects, and indeed, i couldnt do them at all, grumbled and decided to wait till the next day to consult people.
Slept at 4, and by that time, i have already stayed awake for more than 48hrs.
And thats excluding the fact that i was working during that period of time, had a really long day out, and has been sleeping on an average of 2-3hrs for the past one week.

And yes, i am responsible for my own actions.
I know that even by spending more time doing my projects, i won't get them done.
Because i know nuts about it.
But i have to thank benson for coaching me just now, you are awesome!




Lastly, how do you know that you hate somebody?

When even the slightest thing that he/she does, irks you tremedously.
You can't wait to shut the person up almost immediately.




Off to complete my DMPF:)

After much pondering, i have decided that i should retake INMM next semester.

Realising that i know shit about the subject, after the attempt to do it moments ago, i regretted for sleeping in class, not paying attention and skipping classes.
Now, just 1 day before the submission, then i am deciding to do that interactive website, ha, I have truely over-rated myself.
With practically nothing in mind that how am i gonna go by doing the whole project, nothing helps at all.
And to think that i thought i could do it, without the help of rick toh., just last tuesday, he still asked me to look for him if I needs help with actionscript, looking very concern and worried, yet i procrastinated, waited and slacked!, and now.... i think I am such a disappointment!

Although i have plenty of unwillingness to retake a module, but judging from where i am right now,this is the only alternative if i ever wanna be on the right track again.
And moreover, INMM is an subject that i should have knowledge in if i am gonna continue pursueing this diploma, especially when i am allocated to Distributed Multimedia next semester.

Recently, i have been pondering and i started questioning myself whether should I even be bein in polytechnic anyway.

People paid their school fees to study and to learn new stuffs, yet in comparison, i am paying the same amount of school fees to slack and sleep.
Like wth, i am totally wasting my time and my parents money.
Yet when offered to an alternative out from the course of study, i stubbornly declined the offer because i THOUGHT I COULD, i still think that i am able, because i know, despite the fact that i have been saying that i am going to work hard,, i hasn't been doing so.

Now that things has turned out this way, other then regretting, i think i should start salvaging the shitty situation that i am in, and the decision that i am making, i believe, will work the best for me.
I seriously don't want to breeze through my entire polytechnic life and know nothing on what i have studied upon graduation, or in any worst scenrio, realising that i can't graduate when its all too late.
Next semester, should i ever slack again, i will terminate myself from the course because seriously, there's no point for me to stay.:(

This leaves me with more time to do my other two project which are dueing on the same day as well.

"I am responsible for whatever mistake that i have made."

And yea, i am still in the midst of deciding whether anot to quit starbucks.
Shall see.
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Anyway,on a happier note, HAPPY ADVANCED 18th Birthday HAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!:)

open your eyes liang

Quite sad that you are not able to celebrate with us on your actual day, but its ok, better then not being to celebrate it at all right? hahaha.

Anyway, met up with him and liang on friday, 080808, to celebrate with him his 18th birthday in advanced, like duh.
Did some catching up, because the last time we met was on my birthday!

Dined at kenny rogers and the pot pie was HUMONGOUS that i have ordered!
I couldn't finish the pie, and please don't find it amusing.

Its THIS BIG!


The photo don't do the size of the pot pie justice.

And guess what, we proceeded on to clark quay for bungee jumping, was quite reluntant intially, but gave in in the end.
The ride was great and be glad that i am still alive.!:)
It wasn't as bad as i thought it was, but i will have to confess that I was indeed afraid of the ride intially because i thought my heart won't be able to take the thrill.

Brother, see how much of a sacrifice i did just for you!:) haha
I didn't even went for the ride on my birthday despite the fact that its free and anything.
So, be appreciative lah. haha

Met up with xiong at CS to catch the love guru after the ride while liang went off for soccer.
Slacked @ cs with hao while waiting for xiong to arrive and the movie to start.

The movie was... quite entertaining. Haha, the jokes did kept me awake despite the comfy seat and being dead tired.
Walked home after the movie.

Guess we have to do more catching up in the holiday!
Really soon:)



To end off, happy 18th birthday once again hao!:)
Wish you all the best in whatever you do and may you receive what you want really soon!
And 18 liao hor, time to be more serious!Hahaha
All the best:)

And girls out there, his single and very available:)

FRUSTRATION.


Good, and praise the Lord for that, DMPF submission has been postponed till next monday!
Which leaves me only one project to submit tomorrow.


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HOWEVER, because of the postpone,


I HAVE NOW


3 SUBMISSIONS ON MONDAY.




I think i am going gaga right now, like so high and mad.


And on the other hand, i seems to be thinking more pessimisticly because of the lack of sleep.
Easily frustrated and irritated.

I NEED











SOMETHING TO KEEP ME GOING.!

My brain is mulfunctioning, just thing is just not right.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MAY WOON!!!

Hahaha, hope that you have enjoyed the very pleasant, shocking and somewhat touching surprise that Kenny and I had for you, and of course the LONG time spent and slacked at west coast park and some i have no idea places with us. HAHAHA.
I know you love us.! Hahahaha!

What that needs to be said, has been said, and what that needs to be done, has been done.
All in all, have a blessed year ahead!
Stay cheerful:)



Thats kenny, on the...
Flying fox i think. hahahaha


Other photos are with May. hahaha

Stay strong:)

Phil 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"

Sian.

Had a great day!:)





At the museum,
Who say that nudity is prohibited in singapore?



This is 1 good work, detect the EEG emitted by ur brain and show an image on the screen.



May, kenny and me @ FOP:).



And and and, SAMUEL IS SO CUTE.
just cant help it. hahahaha.

And da jie is giving birth to a baby daniel!
Congratulation!

Shall continue mugging for my sociology common test later on. :):)

God is good.