When night falls....

Sometimes... I need my attention as well.. Not the outer, but the inner.

Alright.

I spent my valentine's day with some adorable childrens, followed by CCH teachers, hell lots of fun.:)


Kenny, me, san san and audrey!



And yes, the 2 cute siblings in our service, shawn and esther!


We Roamed the streets after service and we finally settled for Changing Appetite for desert.




We had THESE at Changing Appetite, guilty as it may seems, but they are heavenly!


Audrey, bear and Kenny.

San and me.

San and audrey.

Me and audrey.

San with Kenny.


Me and Kenny with our leader, Joanna Sin!


San,Joyce and Audrey



The bear fever was in the AIR!



It was supposed to be xi nu ai le from left to right, but somehow, mine didn't work the way i wanted it to be.



Hahaha, gugugugugug face:D






And me and kenny even gave the ladies FLOWERS:D.


We parted after desert, Kenny followed me to meet michelle, shimin, peisheng and jazz to go pub. Did hell lots of forfeit. eg. Peisheng to do pushups in the pub, then HOT pole dance with Kenny as the pole, Jazz too, to grind the chair whom i was seated on, Kenny to tell a girl that she looks really cute and left his number on a napkin for her, shi min to gave this flower to a guy with her mouth, and michelle to do this is my house, this is my heart, and this is me to a very handsome girl waiter and hugged her. Mine was probably the worst, DAMN YOU GUYS.
Well, as the saying goes, what goes around comes around.. Well, all those forfeit was suggested by me.
*evil grin*








Gugu face no2.






We actually took all the videos of the forfeit, but too bad for you, the camera we used sucks was too dark, therefore, only my video is slightly watchable. With voice.=.=




With that, you roughly know what i did for my forfeit, the story continues.





And our day ended, really early.

It got me tickled a little when i found out that someone lied to me on a particular event.
Come on man, if you want to lie, do a good on...

Well...if you happened to lied to me.


That's you.
I saw the entry and the photos.

I cannot stand lies. Period

What have I been busy with for the past few saturdays?



Spending time in children church and these adorables!




Ester!
She's only 4 years old, can't even remember me and kenny's name. Can't blame her thou:)



And guess what is the name of the girl next to her.

ZARA! Haha.


And this is zara, ester with belle.
She's the youngest, 3years old, and she's like a little princess, loves her luggage, and extremely cute.
Like ester, she had trouble calling our name. When kenny tried to introduce himself to her.
She got the name as...

"Teacher Kelisa"
Apparently, she only got the first syllabus right.

No wonder Kenny discriminate her.


Kenny with ester and Gek shaun! The older brother of ester.

They look alike right?


And that's San2 with the 4 adorables. Blessed right...


And that's me! the adorablest of them all. With the adorables.
Had fun playing with them. :D


These are only few of the adorables, lots more to come.




It's fufilling serving God as well as serving these childrens at the same time.
Like what Joanna always say, we are raising the next generation, and we play a significant role in the kingdom of God as well.
And thou serving in Children church is very tiring with lots of commitment, it's like weekly energy booster. It's really beyond description.
I guess when you have the passion for something, it naturally gives you the energy.:D
It's really a eye opener for me, and it got me even rooted in God.
And indeed, I am not doing just voluntary work, I am doing it for God.:D


I am attending morning prayer for the whole of next week. Waking up at 5am every morning to pray in church, after which I will go back to school to do my projects, follow by lesson, tuition, ministry and jogging. it's a long long week!

Another friend of mine passed away yesterday.

Knew her from Starbucks, and she's really one bubbly and caring girl.
I still remember her being one of the more genuine people who really showed concern and encourages me while working.

Accident happens, and hers is really one big regret.
All she wanted to do was to keep the birds away from her cats because she was afraid that her cats will chase the birds and fell from her 7th storey flat.
But little did she knew that she would be the one that will fall off instead
Her initial act to protect her cats lead her to her death due to her carelessness.

Accident do happens, thou its inevitable, but i guess we should still do all we can to take care of ourselves.

She did sow a seed in my life, thou we hasn't talked for quite sometime after we both quitted starbucks, but her encouragement, genuine and kindness acts and bubbly personality did brought me joy, and made my Starbucks stay enjoyable.
She will be remembered.

Rest in peace, Yasmeen.
May God bless you.

I am seriously getting all worn out that i have been sprouting nonsense.

Was giving tuition just now and my student was writing a chinese compo and apparently her chinese is so bad that i had to go through with her word for word explaining to her each time.

It was supposed to get my mind going.

Well...Supposed to.

Somehow, somewhat my mind just went off while elaborating and it was really the extreme.
I could still talk while dozing, and answering her questions each time... But in a totally nonsensical way.
It lasted for about a few minutes here and there and what woke me up was when I suddenly said

"243 and 181!"

I shook my head hard, and there she was staring at me. I giggled a little and she asking me whether was that the number that i bought for the 10million TOTO today.

I looked through her work, and i had the shock out of my life.




Because she really wrote down whatever that i have said when i was daydreaming.
If you think that its bad enough....

She wrote it all wrong.

My God.

I am really tired that i am going to sleep now and not go for jogging.
So much for "Jog everyday!:)"

For far too long,I have taken it for granted that having positive thoughts is important and crucial.
Not that I am an extreme pessimist that I will always look on the grayer and darker side of each circumstances, neither am I suicidal, thinking of death, bloody or laugh at other people's misfortune.

But i realized, for far too long, i have been so good with making up excuses for myself which will somehow makes me justiable in front of people.
And that's what i always do, shoving appointed responsibility away from myself by coming up with 101 reasons why I shouldn't be the one selected to do the job. Or 101 reasons why am i not doing a good job.

Just like what i was telling weisiong the other day.
I asked him, "At the end of the day, what is the real reason? Many times, We can be so blinded and we are so good at coming up with coming up of excuses that can be flawless to an extend that you can deceive everyone and makes you accountable for everything. But you know it better yourself and you can't deceive God, think deeper, and ask yourself what is it? whats the real reason for not doing so? "
And what i said shook me hard too, my mind went blank that instance, and it took me long to "recover" from that revelation.
Because I was exactly a man of my words, in a very bad way.
And i too, started going deeper into the reasons that i had been giving.

I am stubborn, that's that. and bad.
And many many many times, I tend to be blinded. I will have reasons to justify myself,
But as truth surfaced, and its stood right infront of me when i read through the bible study material for children church.

"Having Positive thoughts"

And it tells a story which i have taken for granted for, about the twelve spies who were sent into the promised land to spy who their enemy was.
10 of them came back with bad reports, having little faith and having negative thoughts that they won't win against the giant and that God is sending them there to die.
But Joshua and Caleb stood in, proclaming faith and positive thoughts that "When God is for them, no one can be against them".And it ended with them slaying the giant, and Joshua and Caleb, the only 2 of the twelve to enter the promised land.

Not that i have no knowledge of this story, but somehow, this story stood right infront of me and i could instantly relate to it when Joanna was sharing with the childrens just now.

Am I going to be like the 10 other spies, who have no faith in God that He is able to do all things when He had already revealed himself to them time and time again?

Am I going to be fearful towards the "giants" in my life and give up on the "promised land"?

Am i going to let negative thoughts overcome my full potential?

Or am i going to be Joshua and Caleb to trust in God's word, and have faith and unlock my full potential and destiny that God has for me.



And that sets me thinking, there and then.

And truely, fear cripples creativity.
Because creativity is experiemental.
By proclaming that i am not creative or inadequate, that why i am not going to do this or do that is just like pouring oil into fire. Because the fire/flaws only gets bigger.


Have Faith!
For far too long.