When night falls....

Note: A very lengthy and random entry:D

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY 18 YEARS LIFE.
THAT I STEPPED ON A DAMN DOG SHIT.
And i didn't just stepped on it, i stepped into it. thinking that its just mud or whatever.
It was a damn smelly one i tell you.
It was so smelly that while chatting with jar and kenny, the smell was so damn strong that we couldn't carry on talking.
And on the bus, kenny would rather bury his head near his armpit then the breathe without doing that.
And the mother and daughter who were few seats away, was covering their nose as well, while looking around to see where the smell is coming from. guess what, the bus was pretty much deserted and at that point of time, there was only me, them and a group of people chatting happily.
Talking about how a bad actor i am, i shouldn't have displayed a total wretched and frustrated face and should have just laughed happily.
Because obviously, if you step on dog shit, and you know it, you wouldn't have the mood to laugh happily like that group of people right.
So given the contrast, they knew that its me.
=.=
Super duper, ass man.

But thank goodness there was a toilet at the nearby station and it took me quite long and some embarrassment to wash the shit away.

Thats the power of confession man, i keep saying shit shit shit.
And there i have it.

SHIT ON MY SHOE.

I should stop saying asshole as well.





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Back to my confession.

I know love letter is probably the most outdated and old fashion way of declaring love for one, I don't think anyone still practices that, and should any one still do, i pray him that he will find his way out of rejection soon. I don't think girls nowadays like receiving love letter right? if it still exist in their dictionary that is.

But hey, don't be surprise, i actually wrote a love letter once before!
And once again, i pray that she don't read this.

This is quite random, because if i hasn't thought hard enough i probably wouldn't have remember it. Well, you might be asking why did i tried to hard to remember it then.

I JUST COULDN'T HELP IT.

Blame it on the random chat these days, which constantly reminds me of her, and it somehow triggers off a significant thing which i did, but i just couldn't recall.
So i thought hard, and really hard.
And "PAM"

A love letter.
And there i was, "Yes, i wrote that once before in my entire secondary school years!" mumbling of course.
Now as the memory start falling in places, i finally understand why it took me so hard to recall it.
Well, i can only vividly recall the content, it goes something like...
"I think know, i like love you, eh, but hmm i will lose weight for you, and maybe we can have something after o's?"
I can't remember the exact vocab that i used back then lah, but i remember what i wrote in it, and thinking back, i tell you.

ITS SUPER MALU LAH.

And i remember when it happened and why did i suddenly do that.

So it was her birthday, and i bought this very nice pink pendant? or earring, i couldn't remember, which i bought it from perini silver, that i remember, but is this how you spell it?
and in it, i buried a note and the content, is of above.
MY GOD.
I actually did that.

And back to why i said it was so hard for me to recall.
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Because after that self proclaim sweet gesture that i did for her, apparently after pretty much courage.

She never talked to me again. obviously avoiding me. i guess? as much as i can remember.
THATS KIND OF SAD.
Took me sometime to get over the fact. hahahaha


Now God, heal me of rejections man. hahahaha.
Joking lah.

So thats my confession, which i know, i hasn't told anyone before, not even liang, hao, thou they were the one who accompanied me to buy that damn pendant or earring.=.And the next time someone wants to write a love letter, think again man. haha.

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I don't like people who are self-centered.
Can you just, for once, put yourself in another person's shoe and think?

And i feel like saying this: credits to shimin. HAHAHA

Not easy to maintain one, even harder to find one.


I wonder why some people cannot get the signal that you are pissed when you did show.
Did they choose to ignore that and continue annoying you or they just have low EQ. Sigh.


Some jokes have a limit. & to repeatedly say the same thing, call the same thing, is simply childish.


Why do all friendships face perils at times? Is there a way to avoid or is it just normal.
I wonder.


Maybe, maybe facing the problems together will help. I hope.

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I find it very amazing for selig to read chinese! hahaha

Ps: tilt ur head a little:D

And with sameul already so cute, his bro, daniel was born on the 15 of december!
Weighing at 4.7kg, his is the heaviest baby thus far in the family.
Congrats da jie:D:D