I wanna burn this book, mix the ashes with water and gulp it all up.Probably die first.
Cos its almost impossible for me to read it all!
And if you think i only have this book to read, then go library level 7 and have a look, this is one of the thinnest that i can find.
Let the hardworkingness last!
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Never ever laugh at other people's misfortune.
And its very true.
We were cracking joke and laughing at jazz when he told us that the person that cut his hair told him that he is suffering from hair loss and there's a hole in his scalp.
So, I did laugh at him and crack a few random jokes about him always wearing cap, thats why hair not enough oxygen and hence the hair drop.
And guess what, Me and selig were at vivo cutting our hair just now and the person that cut my hair told me that i have a hole on my scalp and is suffering from hair loss!!-,-
Man, what goes around comes around.
Next, i have a few things that i wanna buy.
An Ipod nano.
An acoustic guitar.
A laptop folder. i forgot what is it, will update when i remember
And a new bag.sling and back pack!
hahahahaha, need blessings man.*hint hint hint*
And especially when its arise and build season!
Too bad my birthday is over. lol
Lastly, i am going for water baptism on the 16th of november!
Hahaha, and support is greatly appreciated!.:D
Also also, asia conference is around the corner.
Too many things!
Too excited!
And no, i haven forget you all.
Just that i don't say it, because i feel that it is both ways.
I think i can call myself karate.
Or even.... silat!
Why not.... Taekwondo?
Or or or, MUAY THAI. HAHA
K, i know its very lame.
But i didn't know 林宥嘉's english name is yoga until i watch jing qu jiang on channel u on sunday.
His 伯乐 is quite nice by the way, got this the more you listen to it the more you like it effect.
Anyway, its more or less finalise, unless till further amendment.
Call me jasper. LOL
Can some one just laugh along with me?
Literally, I can't help but to laugh at this picture and at the meantime feeling dishearted because i will never ever, make it for modelling industry, if i ever,ever by the grace of God have to chance to do so.
Buckle up, and be sure you are not drinking anything lest you choked on it.
The long forgotten photo.....
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TIDAH!
Its was my junyuan superstar voting pic!
I looked so serious...ly hilarious.
And i was supposed to look out, in joy and full of hope and anticpation.
BUT IT DOESN't SEEMS TO BE WORKING!
Infact, i looked hopeless and as thou i can't wait for the whole thing to end.
Now, i wonder,how did 200+ students of jyss managed to survive this Torment while they were attempting to vote for me back then.
I reckon that half of them choked on their rice while they were voting, while the rest, voted with their palm on the desktop screen blocking the photo.
Well, PERHAPS there were also this minority group that voted because they thought there were voting for the weirdest expression.
I mean, comon, what was i even, expressing, i dunno.
But damn mr sin, for his poor photoshooting technique.
I think its probably because i am a guy. thats why he didnt make an effort to make me nicer.
The girls on the other hand, look SOooo much better.
Xuan qing and peggy. hahaha.
But whatever it is, i am still proud of myself, because i did won eventually.=D
And if you wondering how did i found the pic, i didn't save it.
Cos i was boliao enough to google my name, and the following caught my attention.
"bOii vOtee furr bOon sOom 4e4 de. he rawks lahs"
yes, i rawks. HAHA.
Think her name is xueli, and no, i don't know her.
Guess my friends might know thou.
Now,i am not self-proclaming already hor. mind you.:D
After checking ole, and reading my TP mail... Week 2 Classes will be scheduled as follows:
I am pretty confused, it states there.
No Tutorials in Week 2 and Week 3
Then, to my surprise.
P05: Tues 11-1pm, Thurs 4- 6pm
Tues 11-1pm happens to be our only tutorial lesson.
And sadly, thurs still 4-6pm!
Can someone enlighten me please?
And as i continued checking.
To my sweetest surprise:
For WAD
There is no lesson for week 2. You are to complete P3&4 (found under Couse Documents>Practical) as a group based on the electure on Programming with PHP (found under Course Documents>Lecture) and some online learning (found on P3&4).
No lesson means, NO Web application for the WHOLE WEEK.
Sidetrack
Speaking of WAD, my lecturer looks like a pushover, he seems nice, but then he looks like a loser. period.
On top of that, he got this... China accent, which gets really frustrating when he tries to explain the simple coding and yet at the end of the day, i only understood a pathetic 20%, then i had to ask jazz and benson for the rest of the 80%.
I have to admit, i have no talent for IT, in fact, i pretty much suck in it.
BUT, i have to praise myself because i am amazed that i am actually doing the lab work in class.
I must do well this semester!
And if everything goes smoothly, provided that there is really, really no tutorial for HCI next week.
It means that i need to attend school for Monday(PH), tues and wednesday!
But on the other hand, if things doesn't go smoothly, it means that i have to go back school on wednesday for 2hrs!
To my dearest poly classmates, i don't know if there's any lecture on wednesday for HCI, but i am looking optimistically that no tutorial means no lectures.
Well, even if there is, i am given a choice to attend or not as well right? :D:D:D
But i know what i want also lah, if there is, i will still attend, no worries.
Then back to school on thursday for that 4-6, then 8-11 on friday.
Pretty slack next week, to think that i thought my timetable really suck.
And yes, i am only taking 4 short modules this term, next term will be hectic, but not this.
Besides that, i dropped Fundamental of hospitality and tourism cos i find the passing criteria overwhelming.
Too many components to be fufilled, way to redundant.
Thou the lecturer did say that its "harder to fail then to pass" i reckon that its not true cos my previous 2 CDS lecturer also said so.
I did pass, i met ALL the criteria, but i just passed. Dog.
=.= Think i gullible is it? lol
So, i wanted to take up Music expression, BUT to my disappointment, its full!!!
Cos i was so sure confident that i will get that CDS, i didn't consider other options, but i had to.
Was pretty indecisive then, between World issue and Psychology in Creativity.
But i ended up taking psychology in creativity in the end cos i need to be creative, hopefully this subject helps!
Was given a choice to have my friday vacant, but after further thoughts, i decided not to cos it will really make my wednesday wayy hectic. 9am-7pm, living hell. hell no.
So, yea.
Bye Hospitality and tourism and hello to Psychology in creativity
Good thing is, i am in the same class as sucker and hao.
But thats besides the point.
But i really hope that i will not flunk it this time round!
Thats all for school stuffs.
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Have been quite busy lately, travelling here and there very often.
But from the bottom of my heart, i wanna pick up a new martial art.
Kenny'eooooooooooooooooooooo!
Then, i will be serving in children church soon.
What can i say, i love kids? In a very caring way.
And i think i possesses the natural criteria that will make them scared of me.
Thats, once again, besides the point cos i am obviously not scary. lol
And regarding work, i am still working in starbucks, but not that often. hmm.
Twice a month.
But i might be giving tuition soon.
Cos Gan ma, in case your don't know who is she, who happens to be ashley's mom, asked me if i wanna give vivi tuition.
But she did warned me that she made her first tuition teacher ran away, and the second and current one cried.
Hahaha.
P6, sec 1 sec 2 work, i still can teach lah. hahaha
Enough of updates, meeting wen jie and ah kun later.
But i am broke.
I have less then 20bucks to last me till next month.
Strangely and weird enough, i have been having less then 20 bucks for the pass one week, never depleted. Thank God.
Can't go for massage thou, 30bucks.
Sian 1/2. haha
Lastly, I just have no confidence in the friendship.
The ups and downs, presense and the attitude that is being portrayed, is just like that.
No wonder sometimes i get so emo over it, cos i spend those time trying to figure things all out.
Some things are better left unsaid, others its better to be said!
Very wordy post, if you manage to read till this point.
You earned yourself 1 point, 100point, i respect you!
Member?
Oh yea, i love pork chop, have been having it almosst everyday since school reopened.
I think i like school.
Lol, I know it doesn't sound convincing.
Cos i am not convinced as well.
But i realize, Mensa's Pork Chop still tastes better then business's
And except for my weird and hoarse voice, i thought that everything went well today.
Oh wait, i dozed off during CMSK today, its a freaking 4hr straight lesson, but well, the lecturer, who is by the name of boon kiat, is good enough to let us go for a 1hr break.
Last but not least, I HAVE GOT A BAPTISM NAME ALREADY.
Its a pretty good name that the girls came up with.
Kai
BUT, i am not gonna use because....
Yes, i guess you would have got it by now.
Kai Guan.
Open close.=.=
Sick + Lack of sleep = disaster!
I think i am quite terrible, because despite being sick, i still don't know how to take care of myself!
My voice is still as hoarse, and it is not turning any better, then on top of that, other sickness are also surfacing. Great huh, school's reopening tomorrow yet i am falling terribly sick now.
Speaking of tomorrow, i am not looking forward to it, but truth is, regardless of what happen, I still have to be in school tomorrow! and that is that.
But i guess before sleeping later, i will pray and change my mindset regarding the reopening of school, so that i wont start of the first day of school really bad.
All the more i should be in church when i feel tired, come on!
ITS THE POWERHOUSE!
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
Just feeling a mixed of emotions.
I guess, its still affecting me every now and then, thou i reckon that i should have just moved on, but apparently, as much as i cant get the thought off my mind, even the casual talk with friends can end us up in the loss of our friend.
I don't know how they catch this whole thing, but as for me, and i have said it in the previous post, it really makes me deepen down my thoughts, it really deepen my conviction, as i really experience fragility of life.
It happened all too sudden, i didnt know how to react then, i didn't even want to put myself in any of his or his family shoes, because no matter how hard i would have tried, i know I could never ever relate to what they are going through
What nadia told me this morning was really true,at our age, we only know how to enjoy life and all, but for raihan, he experienced so much more...so much more then we can ever imagine.
It really serves as a wake up call for us, because life and death isn't just a passing issue, neither will it missed us, simply because we are still young.
I don't want this form of regret that i carried for raihan to repeat itselves if one day such event happens again.
Instead, i want them to be comforting and peace thats upon me that if it happens again.
I don't want the memories that others have for me as they begin to reflect on, to be only negative and nothing else.
Instead i want it to fond memories that it will bring them joy as they began to think about it, bringing a smile, even at the final moments of their life.
I don't want to go through the final moments of my own life to be only thinking about events which hasn't occur, and i start regretting why didnt i make them happen.
I want to be as much as possible to be silently shouting for joy as i finally end my marathon with a blast and nothing thats drawing me back.
I don't want to regret not letting someone know how much they have impacted me and how important they are to be only at the point when i know its all too late.
Instead, i wanna start cherishing them, and every single moment moment that i have with them.
Neither do i want the memories what others have for me when i leave the world to be only negative and absolutely nothing else.
I want to leave behind fond memories, or even a legacy for people to remincise.
Thou by then, it would have matter no more, but to isn't it sad if you think about it now?
If given a choice, i would have chose to not think about having any the people that i know to be leaving us, as a matter of fact, i don't want to,but yet, this incident just leaves me with no alternative, if it has only bring sorrows, it misses its point, its important for us or rather if its me alone, to get myself mentally prepared, and to really do something about my present life so that i wont regret again.
I thank God for giving me this life to live, and being able to amend my mistake before its all too late, I love him, for his plans and decision made for every single one of us, Jesus for intercepting for us everytime, and Holy Spirit for guiding me for staying by me when i Need him.
I pray for safety to be upon every single one that i know of, especially my family and friends, and even if He decides to bring them with to Him one day, i pray that they will leave with joy rather then feeling remorseful over what they did.
All in all, its definitely better to live short yet meaningful life, than living long yet meaningless life.
Let it be a wake up call and lesson learnt for every single one of us ba.
I want my destiny to be fufilled, by faith.
Thank you God, thank you Raihan.
I guess there are many things in life that will caught us unaware of.
Life and death, its pretty much parts and parcel of our lives, and yea, every minute or even seconds, there are people dying on this very earth that we stay in.
But yea, we don't normally take notice of it thou its a on going thing thats happening.
And many times, we take it for granted that people around you will stay through with you, as long as its possible.
But yea, it feels exceptionally weird and uneasy when you realize someone close to you past away, just like that.
I am not trying to be emotional over this, but this is the first time that i have experience people close to you pass away, just like that.
Just like that.
I still remember the last time the few of us visited him, he was still able to joke with us and all.
And we were anticating his recovery as he told us that he will be able to recover fully after going through chemotherapy, we were rather relieved then.
Then now, to think that me and kk was still in the midst of a dota game when gx told us about this, he just pass away 20mins ago.
I don't what to say or how to react.
What i know is, this feeling sucks man.
I know there's no point talking about it now, but if i have known that his life will end in such an early age, for half of his lifetime that he were in the same class as me, i would have treated him better.
And now, i will really learn to cherish every single one thats around me even more, and living life to the fullest.
Making someone's day everyday, cos you will never know when is it gonna be for the last day for the person.
Not pessismistic, but its just, so true.
Bye Raihan.
i am tired
Firstly, I must say that i am having a really sexy voice now, think i shouted too much, or sang too much, now i am really suffering from sore throat.
Secondly, i am dead shagged cos i think i drank slightly too much yesterday at the bbq.
But i was still awake then, just that i have forgotten most of the things that happened cos i spent most of the time sleeping, and thou its a bbq, i just couldn't recall eating any bbq food. hahaha.
P/S: i hardly post picture de hor.
Thong poh(so cute)=.= and wei lun.
Cheng yong!. hahahaha
WEILUN!
ZHILIANG.lol
KOK KIAN AND KEVIN
Bachelor party, lol
HMM....
!?!?!?!?!?!wth?
Pardon for the quality, i tried my best with photoshop, but thats the best that i can do.
And it was the best camera we had yesterday!
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Best friends? close friends?
Not
But i just feel that from the way you portray things to me, it seems i am only there to stand in the gap, cos vacation is so boring and sian.
I hope i am thinking too much, and that theres really a bonding.
My mother told me that Geylang lor 14 has the most prostitudes, BUT THAT TURNED OUT TO BE A SCAM.
Hahaha, met up with hao and cy around evening time yesterday somerset town for dinner and movie, caught Eagle Eye
and I really felt that its definitely worth my 10bucks, as compared to that gugu The days
which we watched that other time.
After the movie, due to the agonizing fact that we are going through the same old routine each time we meet up, i thought we should do something new hence i suggested that we should go geylang for supper.
We landed up in yong he for tao hua and you tiao, before we started to tour around the whole area.
So back to the first part of my post, my mother used to tell me that if i ever wanna go geylang, never ever go lor 14, cos its the red light district. so yet again, i suggested that we should go there and have a look, but to my disappointment, there were only that few. ugly ones
But of cos lah, we didn't just stop there, otherwise it really beats the purpose, so we continued exploring with hao as guide, and i was quite amazed lah cos there were this stretch of road that was really infested with them and they were almost standing side by side, another thing that i realized was that singapore really have lots of hotels leh.
We walked in circles, and circles, that....Hahaha, the prostitudes recognizes us and one tried to stop cy as in literally standing infront of him touching him and all asking him to stay for night night, and the other 3 asked us to stop walking and stop for, you know what.
K lah, uninteresting, but i find it really amazing and it serves as an eye opener too, not only were there lots of prostitudes, but of different races as well, andi realize, some of the pimps are around our age.
I do feel the sympathy for them especially when we saw them running when there was a police car that drove by, note, i am not saying this to make me seems the best of the lot, i believe they felt it too. but heck we are going again next week, and i just asked xiong to join us as well next week. haha.
If you are shocked to see us there, ask yourself,
Why are you doing there in the first place?
After exploring for around 2 hours, we stopped by a dim sum place, ate some dim sum, explored abit more and took the night rider home.
Got home and 3, slept at 4 and woke up at 7.30 for work.
Damn, the customers today was quite demanding and i am really pissed by it.
I was yelled by one, then the other, sarcasticticly asked me,
"What does it take? for you to clear our table?'
Then i calmly walked there, and saw that there were nothing on the table, then he say, "i just want you to shift this chair to the other table so that it can be more spacious."
=.=||| qian bian
Reached home, jogged @ bedok reservoir, and i took my timing for the first time.
It sucked.
23mins. -.- and i thought i was quite fast intially.
And with this, it ends my day.
4E4 bbq tomorrow:D
And i am not working really much next week.
I realize i hasn't seen anyone from C171 at all for the whole of this vaccasion!!!
Mich, shimin, jane, selig,benson,qs, lindy, becca and all, all dunno die until where already!.
Looking forward to see your on friday!! hahahaha
And i hasn't been hearing from cheryl as well lately, CHERYL, if you are reading this, hahaha, come for the bbq tmr!
Last week of vacation already, need to slack more, and not slack when school reopens:)
i am falling sick.
AND I AM SICK OF ARRANGING THE LINKS IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER, i am not gonna do it anymore!
Lastly, my curoisity got me into this really deep shit. damn
Ji dan.
After what pastor shared with us yesterday, i am rather convicted into keeping a good record of my spending.
Many time than often, i will feel really demoralized when i realizes that i don't know where did all my money went to in the midst of the month. So, yea, i need to start having a budget for everything and record my spending well. haha.
I need to be wiser, because only stupid people spends all that they have as soon as they receive it.
At least for now, i know that majority of my money goes to food. hahaha.
Work today was horrendous.
Apart from the fact that i had to work with the new store manager, i also had to stay back cos he feel that my performance wasn't up to standard, which i then, rebuked him in a nice tone that he was too quick into judging me simply based on one shift.
Was supposed to meet xuan hui to go home with her but had to pang seh her last minute cos cheng yong and thong poh came and look for me last min. Sorry ah xuan hui!
Walked around town with the two of them after work, wanted to buy something, but ended up buying nothing.
But thong poh did, a pair of pointed shoes. hmm.. but we were kind of embarrased by him thou.
Super shagged.
I scald my neck at work just now cos something really hot just flew out from the 200-300 degrees oven aka turbochef and hit my neck and parts of my arm while i was closing it and it totally brought a 180 degree change in my attitude when facing the customer.
I was almost on the verge of scolding the stupid customer which had no idea what she was ordering, but i was still rationale then.
Now, its almost like a love bite on my neck. Ha.
I had subway for lunch and i ate chicken breast!
For your information, the favorite part that i love to eat most from a chicken is its breast.
Hahahaha.
K lah, i am only blogging for the sake of blogging.
:D
It's already OCTOBER the 3rd.
*zing zing zang zang* and wow, we are almost coming to an end to 2008 already which on a sidenote, also means that school vacation is coming to and end soon as well.:(
How fast time flies, like really fast.
If you think about it, for those that are studying in a polytechnic, we have already been through yet another 1 and a half semester, and if you still don't see what the big deal about, think now, school is reopening soon, and you will have to go through yet another hectic routine of timetable, whenever school's reopening, this is always the first thought that comes to mind which i will never fail to feel quite sianed by it.
It is just like, when you were in primary school, you can't wait to be in secondary school cos you envy them, then when you are in secondary school, you can't wait to go tertiary, and so on, and zoom, 18 years, just flashed past, ahhh. how much we have been through.
I used to have this silly thought when i were in primary school, i will ask why didn't my mother born me 5 years earlier, so that by then, when i had that thought, i will already be 5 years older.
But as i grow older, of cause i know thats silly lah, cos regardless of how early you are born, you still have to go through that cycle.
So back to my point, i still remembered on the 1st of january 2008, 12:00am, me hao xiong and kk were at marina square watching fireworks, then we shoot this video, which is now no longer exist, of the fireworks, and in the midst of it, we turned, and ask each other to make a new year resolution.
And if i remember clearly, the goals that we set, were all pretty simple and about the same.
Good results, yea, and i think they also wanted to find that special someone.
For me, as simple as i am(lol), i wanted good results as well, and of cos, to lose some weight. ha.
Of which, i achieved neither both.
While the other 3, did achieve either one or both.
As sad as i may sound, i am actually not sad nor disappointed at all.
I know, I will certainly be much more happier if I had achieve both, but i do know my limitations as well, and most importantly, i did exceled in other areas which i didn't think i would back then.
And that, certainly brings much joy.
Honestly, i have almost forgotten about this 2 resolutions that i have set for myself until just now, and i wonder, who remembers their resolution everyday and with that motivates them to work towards it.
I didn't obviously. i clearly chunked that away the moment its turns 2nd of jan.
Honestly if you asked me, whether will i regret if 2008 were to end now.
Surprisingly, no. cos i am really happy at where i am right now, if you know what i am talking about.
I am very satisfied with the decisions that i have made thus far, thou they may not be the best, but it certainly didnt bring me any form of remorsement.
But guess what? God is good, i still have 2-3 months time before year ends.
And i still can do so much more with that:)
I must say this every year, hahaha, i can't believe i am still as close to wen jie and kun like duh, my bestest K.W.S.
and also my secondary school buddies,specifically hao,xiong,liang, or even kk and cy,lol, who i must say used to bring me so much emoing over and i always pessimistically thought that i will say byebye to them when i graduated from o's back then, but you know, they are WAYYYY too good to bid farewell.
Then, in year 2007, i met michelle, sucker,jane, lindy,selig, benson, qing sheng in poly.
Which except for mich, none left a very good impression, seriously, i thought sucker and benson was a anti social freak, jane and selig both arrogant, lindy an ah lian, and qing sheng, weird. lol
but after knowing them for sometime, i realize, i was tremendously wrong. haha, they are all so thoughtful and nice:)
And just recently, i made up my mind into coming back to church, to knowand serve God all over again, and till now, i hasn't regretted and i will never regret a single bit:)and he blessed me with cool W143! and people like may, kenny, kathryn and rach, and they are so funny, so good to hang out with, and that i don't mind sacrificing for them, they are really great people, all talented in their various way.:)love these people.
I think i should just draft the above paragraph and use it next year. lol
As i was saying, i still have 2-3 months to make this year even much more fruitful, so yea!!!
I must really say, sometimes, we have to think from a different angle to see the beauty of things, if i have chosen to think that i am a failure for not being able to meet my resolution, then i think even if you gives me another 20 months, i will still think it that way.
On another note, i think i hasn't made it official yet, but.
I am going for WATER BAPTISM this coming november!!! together with kathryn, and perhaps kenny, peng, siong and rach?
And surprisingly, my parents are in approval of it.
Hasn't think of a baptism name for myself, but please, kun, stop your "G" intial names which all, don't suit me totally, LOL.
Still thinking thou.
Hahaha, i won't mind if you guys wanna come down for my big day:)
Lastly, i have nothing to say already.
Except, maybe, Happy 14th birthday mabelngiang ngiang ngiang. mabelngiangology. lol
Selamat hari raya!
Well, i can probably relate to this occasion better then any one of you chinese out there because i have been working in an environment with the malays the majority for 1 long year.
I woke up in the afternoon today, then realizing that there are 2 birds in the house, then i realize its my father who randomly bought them home cos he wanted to keep a pet=.=
They are quite cute and colourful thou, i was quite fascinated intially, then my sis us why he didn't buy a parrot, and he shared with us his story about this friend of his.
Who taught his parrot to scold KNN.
LOL, i was even more fascinated then.
But anyway, I am quite sad right now because i realize that my angle is beginning to hurt after I sprained it yesterday @ work, now with that, i can't really go for jogging cos it hurts even when i walk.
Met up with wen jie and kun just now, we agreed to dress up slightly nicer then usual lol, since its the end vow day for wen jie. ha
I spent quite alot without buying anything, because of the damn pick up doll game which i keep putting in $1 coin without catching a single thing, i suck at it, but nonetheless, today was still considered a miraclously day for us because firstly wen jie picked up $5 on the overhead bridge to suntec, which is hmm. quite rare lo, then we miraclously striked a jackpot while playing the scoop candy game at suntec arcade. when all hopes seems to have been lost.
We also watched the housebunny and its really, really a highly recommanded show because its so funny, that I laughed until the nipple on my head almost rolled off. LOL
Ha, work resume tomorrow, starting at 7.30! and i am gonna work at the starbucks in paragon instead, so if you guys are near paragon, come and look for me! hahaha.
Lastly, i am quite broke already lo, still talk about massaging and bathing. =.=
I was basically doing some bloghopping and reading through some past entries and i realize that to see people's life transformed and changing for the better brings so much joy.:)
Not only do i feel happy for them, it also testify the goodness of God in people's life.:)
P.U.S.H, always works.
Everyone desires success in life.
But to be successful in life, and to be successful in Your life is different.
Take in control of your life because only you know what makes you happy.
You can have all the fame and all the riches, but you are not happy at what your doing then there's no point.
Thats my belief, and i am on my way in pursueing it now.
I am happy at where i am now:)
To be a blessing.
