I think we need a chat.
Else...
Ok, i admit my over-sensitivity is coming back again.
But it wont hurt right?
And i read this from yee hao's blog which I find it really true.
People don't really care about how much you know,
until they know how much you care.
Poof! And everyone is gone.
I remember reading it somewhere else before, but just cant recall.
Beautiful song
Here i am lyrics
This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time
Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own
If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm
If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand
If you reach emptyness
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone
Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo
Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two
Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am
if you are by any chance reading this.
I just wanna say I am sorry for my stuck-up attitude towards you in the LT just now.
It just came from nowhere, and i am really sorry for that.
I really hope that you don't mind.
Nevertheless, hope to see you soon.
I am so tired.
Very tired.
Been rushing assignments and thus, only manage to sleep for a mere 4hours in total over the past 60hours.
I am really stress out.
Furthermore, I am still not done with my assignments.
This sucks..................................................
Friends were always there.
But..
Now tell me, what's new.
Experiencing the same thing over and over again makes me wanna run away.
Makes me so sian, and have absolutely no interest in doing anything.
I just suddenly feel so sian of doing anythings.
I don't feel like working, don't feel like going to school, don't feel like doing assignment, don't feel going anywhere, nor staying at home, don't feel like playing PSP,don't feel like dotaing and don't feel like talking as well.
All I feel like doing is to rot myself away.
Hence, i decided to skipped school today.
Because i hasn't touch any assignment at all.
But its not because i didn't care, nor had I not sense the urgentness.
I tried, to try and do that bit of my assignment, then,i decided to put it off to later date.
And frankly, what's new, other then me procrastinating.
So sian of me procrastinating, yet i am procrastinating to kick the habit.
I am not being lame here, but procrastination has seriously got the hang on me.
Then, what's new, with me feeling dejected,neglected, feeling over-sensitive and emo all coming together.
I had made a effort not to be so sensitive and kick off that emo habit by looking at the brighter side.
But i realize, sometimes, i tend to neglect the crucial because i thought that i was just being over sensitive.
Hmmm..This is so confusing.
S0, can life be less predictable, because i am so sick of doing and feeling the same events and things all over again.
So, i have to start changing..
Changing hurts.
Or starting rotting, and eventually rots to death.
Of maybe, i might even an enlightenment through rotting.
BOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Scream out loud.
Rotting have consequences, My cmsk's attendance has fell below 85%.
And more to come.
And its funny to know, when i am really in stress.
Whose willing to lend me a listening ear.
Not those that i thought i was close to.
Oh, well.
For my individual friends.
1.I wonder if am i too sensiive or what, but i just feel that perhaps you are facing problems, as much as I wanna help, its hard.Because you think your alone.
It has been long since we last had a long chat,and its so different now, even to the extend of wanting to meet you.
Hope everything is fine.
And i hope to revert back to the good old times.
Dont be so stress k, pimples all pop out liao.
Hahahaha.
2.Its great being your listening ears, despite not bring able to give perfectly good advices to you, i still hope that i did managed to help at least a twinkle little bit of your many big or small problems.
Maybe i hasn't got the chance to tell you that, its fun talking to you, even thou the chat ends up you doing most of the time. Cause it just seems that you are always having emotional problems.lol
Well, there are times where i have them too, i won't deny it.
Lastly, i hope things will stay the way it is, or get even better.
3.Its fun to have you company, always so lame, and yet so fun.
But i realise, sometimes, i really cant understand you.
I am already trying my best trying to open up, but you are always so laidback.
Talked to you plenty of times, but it always ends up with you laughing all over, and not getting serious over it.
Maybe, it just wasnt meant to be.
But I always believe that if it wasnt meant to be, we wouldnt come this far.
Those many small events that i was completely pissed off by it has came to past.
So, i believe it can get better.
I am really glad to have you around, because when the time is good, its great.
And i am guilty for throwing my tamtrup when the time is bad, but you always dont mind.
I shall not repeat myself by letting you know how good you are because you already know.ha
Lastly, its saddening to see you go, but if its for the best of you, i shall not be the bad company. Ha
4.Known you for more then a decade, the most memorable incident would be the blanket incident.
Makes me realise, how stubborn both of us can get when we are argumening.
When it burst out, we can say so many things in order to make ourself justified.
They are true thou, else we won't know how each other feel.
Its healthy. ha
Because the anger will only last for a few minutes.
Hahahaha, but ultimately, i still do not think that i am not sensitive to other people's feeling.
And its great to have you around.Thanks
K, nothing much to say because i am seeing you so often.
5. I have also known you for more then a decade, if you hasnt realize, which i think you obviously do.
You know, i just found a habit that we often practise.
We will always be close when we are in the same class, and when we split classes, we split.
Despite the fact that i am suppose to be able to see you almost everyday.
But then again, it great to have you back.
So funny.
6.You know, your great, makes me wonder why was I in the anti campaign back then.
But maybe, it might be because of those anti campaign that shapes you to who you are.
Back then, i really had a really bad impression of you. LOL
So, the campaign might not be that bad afterall.
Thinking back, i have known you for many years.
I wonder why i only really got to know you till recently.
Haha, although your words now still aren't anywhere nice.
Its still managable, although its not managable some other times.
And i thank you for trying to listen to my problems although it will end up nowhere.
You are a great friend.
7.I miss you so much, but we can barely meet up now, we are always so busy.
And i apologize for not meeting you sometimes, but i thank you for your understanding.
I miss those bedtime chats, and your words of comfort and knowledge.
Your awesome, and i am glad to have someone like you to share my problems.
But maybe the time has changed, things have changed.
It just isn't like the past already.
Hmm. maybe things will get better.
Really hope to see you soon, go singing k?
8.Haha,its funny how things change through the years.
I still remember many of our arguments, its always so lengthy, filled with anger,yet so crappy.
Yet we can still call it an exchange of views.
I just feel that, people do change afterall.
Maybe its just me, but i just feel so different.
Or perhaps, its the situation that brings in a barrier.
I really do hope that to cast those situation aside.
Lastly, i really don't feel comfortable with strangers.
Each of the above is dedicated to my individual friends.
You should be able to sense who you are.
Its just that handful.
So,try to feel it.
I have already posted enough hints already.
And if its still not enough, here another one, it goes in order.one or another, i shall not say it.
On new year day itself, i felt so burden and heavy-hearted all of a sudden.
But it rose back soon after.
I just want to apologize to those that were around me at that time, i am sorry for starting a new year bad.
But i am thankful for the understanding.
Lastly, i know its abit slow, i just want to say bye bye to 2007.
It suck, with the gst rise and many other things appreciate in price as well.
Making life so difficult.
Also, with my sucky o level results that i thought will be good.
However, its still fun, poly is fun, poly friends are good as well.
But i think i will need another year to get to know them,but time is running out.
Also, i got my first job, and its fun, but not so healthy. hmm.
And i am glad that i am still able to meet up often.
Welcoming 2008,
I am bombed with a bloody psychology project which i have to do the video editing, which i have absolutely no clue at all.
Whatever I just hope that things will get even better, and nothing will get worse.
Be it results, friendships or family.
And just one resolution.
NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!
HAHA, its a broad one, makes me sound so less greedy.
Will upload the photos taken on new year day in my next post.
And i wonder, who will I be celebrating my 21st birthday with?
