When night falls....

Well, I am finally back for an entry.
Hasn't had any urge to blog lately, and i believe it's because of the several changes that happened to me recently, and because of these things, they had changed my perspective to certain things.
I have no more motivation into posting any entries and i have found better things to do then blogging.
Lets just say, I dont feel like blogging.

The emo side of me says that I am feeling really sad as I see how relationship sour,and how my life has changed in terms of schedule and social circle.
And I didn't want to post anymore emo posts, hence, I just ran away from it.
That explains why I didnt blog, because or else, they would all be emo posts.
You know, sometimes,avoiding a problem hurts lesser then dealing with it.
I am actually sparing a thought for myself, as well as you guys!

And the rational side of me says that i was busy with work,and with resting and rotting.
Work is still copeable, and i hasnt have got any complaints about that.
But it's tiring nonetheless, so, i have to rest, and i need to rot, so as to get myself recharged.
And sadly, rotting doesnt involve blogging, hence i didnt blog.

But didnt you guys notice that i didnt mention studying?
I am feeling all guilty thou.
Simply because i didnt study.
It's like, I am so easily procrastinate-able man, tht i can easily strike off studying in my to-do list when i just don't feel like doing it.
Yet, i do know of the importance of it, and i am fully aware that if i dont get my ass moving right now, i will probably retain this semester.
You know, i have so many to-do assignment left untouched.
And exams is exactly 1 month from now.
HOW?

And i realise that even despite ranting and complaining about how bad things are moving.
I aint doing anything about them.
Need to change ah!!!!!!!!
I am so ill-discipline can?
So sick of myself.
GRR!!!

So, my beloved friends.
Please, if i cant help myself, i need your help!
Motivate me!!!
Muahahaha, i know i am asking for the impossible.
Because anyone with the right mind will just tell me that if there's anyone that can help myself, that will be me.
But you know what, i realised that i study better in groups.
Although I am distracted most of the time, i do get serious and i do study.
And that's sooo much better then when i am alone studying, simply because that phrase doesnt really happens because i spend my time rotting and doing nothing productive when i am alone.
SO, do your get what i mean?

Another solution would be perhaps, i should do like what i did before.
Studying at mac and KFC every single day!
Ha...Dont be surprise to see me gaining 10kgs in one month!

Ok, so that's about it.
I would be glad to return with another entry if i can get my life back.
Or, any signs of things getting better.
Or or or, magically complete those untouched assignments that i have, let me turn clever and brings those time back.
Can someone just cast a spell or something? please? Beneficial spells that will benefit me i mean!
A genie that can grant me 3 wishes would be great too!
Overly obsessed with "Charmed"

Hahaha, last but not the least, stupid xuan hui made me do this, and i see no harm in doing it.=)

RULES OF THE GAME : Each player of the game starts off with ten weird things or habits or known facts about himself/herself. People who get tagged must write in their blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end the player must choose 8 people to be tagged and list them down. Do not Tag Back!


1) I blast my mp3 and sings out loud when i am alone, that includes when i am walking on the streets and risk myself being heard.(which i see no harm in doing so) obviously, i LOVE singing very much

2) I have said that i wanna lose weight for the past..8years.? As long as i can remember, I started saying that when I first received a critism from a random friend of my mom saying that i am fat(and cute,but that's not the point,furthermore, i know i am.ha), and till today,people still says that too. Well, sad to say, i really mean it when i say i wanna slim down but i never managed to furfil that promise because i am just plain lazy. There were times that i really put my heart into it, but obviously, they didnt last..And that reminds me of that kevin's joke that goes , me chanting that i wanna lose weight with the two drumstick both of my hands, taking a bite of each when i finish 1 sentence.

3) I think that i am cute because obviously, i am not handsome, so as to make me feel better of myself.HAHAHA

4) I love seeing and making other people laugh even to the expense of making a fool out of myself and acting stupid because their smile makes my day.

5) Yet other the other hand, i am easily hurt, but that only happens when the joke get back-fired or going overboard and people starts climbing on top of me and not appreciating what i am doing.

6) I used to love taiwan sauguages when i was young but i began hating it when i gradually grew up, because i find it disgusting as it reminds me of our male organ.
HAHAHA,

7) I dont start conversation on msn, sms, or even real life, i am much laid back because i am shy and have no courage into doing so because i am afriad of being rejected, which kinda of also means that, i care, but i just dont show it.

8) I have more close girls friends and close guys friends. and i believe that the reason behind that is because my greatest strength is to lend a very good pair of listening ears , and girls,being born as a active speaker, wouldnt mind sharing their problems with me and thats the reason that bonds us together, guys on the other hand, holds high of their pride and dignity and that even when they are having some issue, they would rather keep it to themselves. hence, they dont find my strength useful.ha.

9) I love telling lame,cold and racist jokes.
but sadly, i am not a very good joker,so most of the time, i am the only one laughing at my own jokes.

10) I have a dirty little secrets(which i finds it weird and embarassing to divulge) with regards to me, fearing the sight of blood and gore things.
Omg, you mean your didnt know that i gets paranoid easily by a small cut and fear the sight of someone's head getting chopped off?
And also, i find what's inside our body gross.
So, i am obviously, not a saddist.


People who are tagged: (Well..I carefully picked you out, so you better do it..no , i am not threathening you..haha,well, if you dont see your name here,it's proberbly because you have had been tagged by some other people before)
1) Kun
2) Wen jie
3) Chero
4) Claudia
5) Valer
6) kian hao
7) Rebecca
8) Shi min

By default, it's actually 6, but i changed it to 8.

But nonetheless, you shouldnt just think that you are just one of the 8 that i have chosen and hence thinks little about ignoring it!

So, just take it that, i am pleading you.hahaha

And of course, these.

楊宗緯-新不了情


This should buy me some time not to blog.

Cya.

It's such suay day today.

Benson's PSP was stolen when he was in the com lab.!
From what i have heard, he left it on the table when he was packing up to leave.
And it was during that period of time when someone just took it away and left the lab.
He can't narrow it down to anyone cause it was an opened lab,meaning anyone from any school can go in there.
And i supposed he cant recognise who was there as there were about 40 people in that lab that time.
The suayest thing was, he thought he could see who's the one that took his PSP from the camera,but he was told that the camera was a dummy.
To think that i thought that singapore's younger generation people will definitely not risk themselves and steal something.

Next, Jane's very cool samsung,slim,slide,touchpad,black phone went missing!
She recalled taking out the phone to see the time this morning when she was on her way to school in bus.
And she specifically said that the time she saw was 7.26am.
So, i tried calling her phone and it was offed.
No doubt, someone must have taken it.
Michelle said that someone might had put their hands into her bag and took it away.
While i suggest that she could have simply misplaced it when she was placing her phone back after reading the time.
YOu know, it might have slipped out of the bag,onto the seat.

And as for me,I overslept this morning and missed my WDS lab lesson and i heck care bout it and continue sleeping.Lucky for me, my next lesson was a 12pm comm skills lesson and i had a very nice sleep till 11.30. This is the second time I was marked absent already,last week and this week, so i suppose, i will be receiving a warning letter really soon.
And just now,i went ALL the way down to tanjong pagar for my starbucks lesson, only to found out that i was informed of the wrong date and have made a wasted trip.
And my rewards, sore throat.
Wasted my precious 2 hours which could be used for my wds project.

Speaking of wds, to end off this post with a highlight of the day.
I still haven finish my wds project even thou i tried really hard.
Must be due to my luck that i find it hard to finish as there was just too many technical and mindblock whenever i try doing it.
I am so suay.

Ok, i am lying, i am just dili dali-ish

I am tired.
Never ending due dates to be met.
And it's said that the workload that we are getting now is just a pinch.
It's that little, compared to what we will be getting in year 2.

Shitto, to think that i actually landed myself up in a design course.
There are simply no motivation to drive me moving.
On the contary, I actually feel discouraged when i look at my work pieces.

Have been slacking ever since the start of this term.
I skipped lectures, copied my assignments and daydreamed in class.
I evaluated myself this morning to see how much i have learnt.
The results, almost nothing.

I am just, kinda of busy lately.
And in order to acommadate work, studies and people.
I sacrificed my own personal time.
However, things just went haywired and now, i have crossed the boundaries and have not knowingly sacrificed some other times too.

I am totally booked this week, leaving out not even a single day for myself.
To pile up to that, i have a project to rush.


This is a hectic week and stressful week.
Yet when i was hoping to look for some encouragement, i found none.
Hmm..maybe i am just not used to this.
Just need time to adapt and to balance out well.

I just hope that next week will be a better week.
But then again, it's really time for me to do some catching up.
With my school works and some people.

I am getting really pissed off recently by the number of pangseh rates occurring.
Sometimes, I reserved myself for a particular event cause i feel that i should spend it with this particular group of friends, only to find out that they had spend it with someother people already.
So shit right?
I think i am putting in too much piroritising mindset that ought to be change because they are not treating me like the same.
Since people don't mind pangsehing me, why should i care.

THEREFORE, from today onwards, i am not gonna piroritise any thing for any friends.
It will be on a first come first serve basis.
Although it sounds wrong, but i think this should be the way.
Because not many people will treat you like the way you treated them.

And you know what, i haven watch transformer and harry potter is coming out soon.

And if anyone cares, ask me when will i be free, so that you can meet up with me.
LOL.


Ok, i've made that clear, so the next time you think that i have actually pangsehed you, look for this post.

Hahaha, anyway, working at starbucks is getting more and more fun by the day!
Although very busy, i still enjoys it very much.!=)
Especially when you have so many good partners, and meets some considerate and smiley customers.
It makes my day.



Damn, i have WDS project to submit next week, and i haven even started.

I just came home after a long day in schoolS.
Haha, I said schoolS is because, I did not spend my day solely in TP this whole day,but i also spend the other half of my day in back in JYSS.

The reason why i went back there is because Mrs suganda invited me to help out with her info comm club to do consultation on alice for the sec 1s.
It's was quite an enriching experience for me because it is probably my first and only time being a part-time teacher and giving my precious comments.
On top of that, it really feels good to know that these kids are actually listening to what i have to say about their work.

I am really impressed by some of their work.
There were great effort put in and the skills are somewhat good.
However, their stories are quite lame lah.
But i was wondering, if i were to send in their work for my PRSP assignment, i might score fairly well thou, at least, better then what i am gonna for the last assignment that i handed in.


After the consultation, I sat at my consultation center stoning, while waiting for Suganda to brief them.
I began looking around, and this place came into my attention which I quickly capture it down with wy's cam

















I recalled sitting at this stretch of table, with kh,zl,xs during the extended timetable lesson last year.
We were neither too slack, nor too serious in our work despite the fact the O's was approaching.
Often, we find ourselves silently switching on the computers and doing something else while the teacher is teaching.
Other times, we talked, and we talked, and we talked non stop.
Else, we will began scolding each other simply because one of us wants to concentrate(or should i say sleep?), yet others don't.
Haha, thinking back, it's still kind of fun.!

I started walking around the school snapping at pictures as i walk through the place.
Well, it's for my WDS project lah.
But then, i still went side-tracked in the end because i was rather curious to how 4E4'06 classroom looks like now.
That was when i realise that it's no longer occupied by graduating classes, but the sec 3s.
I walked through the familiar, yet seems foreign walkway.
















This used to be the route taken before and after school or recesses.
If it was last year, you can blind fold any of us, and i am confident to tell you, we will still end up in our classrooms.
















And this!!!haha, how intimidated we would get when we saw silva or mrs oh walking pass!!!
Cause most of us are either talking in our own groups, SMSING,SLEEPING or Chit-chating when some boring teacher is teaching.
It's like macham a "Shen"(As in deity in chinese) is here sia.
Cause you will see, the SUDDEN the revival of a dead class.

The dead will come alive,
The noisy will quiet down.
The buay si tiam finally finds himself a seat.
The playing games ones turns to face teacher and acting serious.

However, after they walked pass our windows, there they will go again.
Dead,chaotic.HELL!
LOL

But but, if there's any "shen" that i am gonna associate them with, it will neither tua pei gong or guan yin ma.
They are just "Wen Shen" aka nemesis.
(LoL, doesnt it looks like "wen Shun"? but strangely, wenshun seems to be the direct opposite of a "Wen Shen")


This walkway may seems dead, but whenever recess or the end of the day is approaching, it never fails to come to life,this time, automatically, again.
















Now that i realise, look at the designs on the wall!!!
Omg, it look so cute!
Ha,reminds me of our very own 4e4'06 design,
It suck, with a few ugly ang pow on it.
And to make the sucky design worst, it was only till lunar seventh month,that we decided to remove to chinese new year ang pow stupid design.
And the windows, look, so clean.
Fellow 4e4'06 members, try imagining my face behind that window if you still find it hard to recognize our old home due to the kawaii change that's done to it.
Oh yea, and often, some people will run out from the front door then to the back door in circles.
It's common to see that happening, cause it just means that some barbaric character in our class has offended some one in our class and was later chased out of the class.
If you see some one walking out, it probably means that it's time for our respective toilet break.
Which you will find it occuring pretty often.

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Can you believe it?
it's neat and tidy nOW!!
4E4'06 on the other hand is always so untidy and last minute!
(Last minutes refers to our noticeboard, which is always in its form as an abstract art and only have done)
They never fails to have sweet wrappers,chocolate wrappers, plastic wrappers or even tissue paper on the floor.
Other then that, you will also find torn pieces of foolscape with shoe prints or some, torn pieces of pages from textbook.
Yea, we love books!

Now,the classroom look so different, with the change of whiteboards and painted walls.
It gives the classroom a new fresh look.
I am not really sure if the chairs and table have been changed or not.
If no, good luck to those sitting on my table and chair, i used to have this habit of drooling salivas when i am asleep or farting whenever i feel like it.

Ha, i can vividly imagine the figures of ex 4e4'06 in the class chit chatting, like how we did in the past.
And recalling the fights or riots that used to occur in class.
(Haha, we were quite childish lah, there was never a day there will be peace.)
Often, you will hear hokkien vulgarity hurling out.
KP LA, TIAM LA, CB LA, KNN LA,
Some worst, they just combine all the vulgarity together and use them all!
"Eh, u kp la, tiam can anot? knnpcb."
Apart from this language spoken, we uses english vulgars too.
F*** la..What the F***, F***ker.
But but but, we dont use them on just anyone, we particularly and only uses them on one of our fellow classmates.
You know who.

And when it comes to people's birthday, you know who will die.

Apart from all these vulgars.
You musn't forget my angelic voice that can be often heard when class gets bored.
Hahaha, don't deny it.


Although what's around have changed.
But one thing remains the same.

Thats the...




Floor.



Our footprints were left here.
And that's all that we could possibly leave behind when we proceed to the next chapter of our lives.
What we brought with us was, the memories, knowledge, the way to life and of course, the friendships that we formed.

And may this accompany us through the new chapter, and the rest of our lives.



Call me someone who lives in the past, or someone who can't accept reality.
It doesn't really matter much to me, for i know, memories are beautiful.
And frankly i don't miss the place lah, i miss the people here.


ahhh..i forgot to add this in!!!
















Our beloved canteen where cheap foods are found.
The price is still as cheap despite the bloody GST increment.
Ha, it's also our tiring night class venue.
When there are times when flies starts dropping and people start shouting.
But there's also a quiet side of it too.
When everyone is stuck to their own books and chionging for O's.

I am such a failure in expressing what i feel.
I can't seems to express my anger,frustration and sadness well.
And apparently, the only expression which i use to express all my feelings is smiling.
Many times, i don't know what am i smiling for.

This has become a problem, because people often think that i am so easy-going that i have no temper at all, and they start crossing the boundaries.
Yet, I cant bring myself to do anything.

Sigh...I am after all a mere human being, and all human being wants respect and understanding.
Yet..No matter how i try to earn them, it is always to no avail.
I hasn't drawn the line, but must i make it so clear and draw that line in the first place?
Why can't it be based on the mutual trust and basic respect that each human beings have for each other?

The differences between acquaintance and friends is that, firstly, friends give you a sense of belonging that acquaintance are incapable of giving, secondly, friends assists and pushes you when you are stumbled by problems, and lastly, friendships builds or mutual trust, respect and understanding, and that they know where the limits are by feeling them and not seeing them, and even when they see the smile on your face, they are able to sense that something is wrong.

If the basic respect and communication is broken, there's no way a relationship can grow, because the line is drawn and the platform which made of mutual trust,respect and understanding is broken.
And by then, no matter how much i want to salvage that relationship because how much it means it to me, is of no use, because it will be all too late, and it should have work both way from the very begginning.
sigh.