First,my com went down..
And now,my phone too.
ARGH...Seems tat i will have to be cut off from modern world for quite some time.
However,u can still find me with my housephone(67827923).
It's the last resort.
Argh...Dun bother calling me or smsing me cos i wont be able 2 receive them.
Guess my parents dint help me pay my phone bills.
This holiday totally sux.
1st,i haf 2 earn my own allowance,
Next,i haf 2 earn for my own bills.
And lastly,my new year clothes!!!!
But luckily,i clitched the admin job.
Will be starting work next week.
But,the problem now is...
The person will call me to tell me more abt the job.
And now,i am without a phone!?!?
Die.....haiyo.
Life without money jus sux.
WTh....independent ur head ah....
I am indeed a POOR(pun) thing.=.=
And yea...Wen jie,if u r reading this.
Jus wanna sae sorry.
I am sorry for single sidedly wanna cast ur away.
I thought ur mind..
But i guess,after reading this post.
Ur shld understand why i dint reply.
Notice tat it's friday nite and i am here blogging?
I have made a huge decision.
It has troubled me for quite some while.
Was unsure wat will happen after tat.
It might change my life,or it might not.
I guess i will be pretty much free on fri and sat in e future.
PPl who noe me,shld roughly noe wat izzit about.
Making tis decision wasnt easy.
1 year...it's neither short nor long.
haix....
I guess,perhaps e onli thing tat hold me back were my 2 cousins.
I would have made tat decision earlier without them.
This is one of e reasons to why i made e decision.
And i guess,it contributed pretty much.
Beats the purpose are e onli words tat i can possibly think of to describle it.
But from e look from it now.
I guess,i will lose them.
Although i wont want to....
But tat was e reason why we got so close.
And i guess the same reason will draw us apart.
1 Year...
tats sufficient for us to make and keep a habit.
I need 2 get used to tat.
I still do wat i am suppose 2 do be4 i haf my food.
And when problem arise,the 1st word tat came 2 mind was the P word.
Let me experience without him.
I might be back,or i might not.
he wasn't there when i needed him.
I cant keep my **i** any more...
Sorry...
Need 2 find a job be4 going back 2 sch.
Hopefully,the i will get e admin assistant job..
I am running out of money...haix.
Stressed out.
I have lots of things to sae,but i cant expressed them into words.
I jus feel so much like a loser.
With a pun.
Getting rather depressed lately.
I have always been the one giving,yet it is so discourgaging for me to not receiving.
Who can i turn to when i am having sleepless nites with my problemS?
Who is e one tat truely understands me?
People turns to me when they r feeling down.
I tried my best to comfort,but who can i turn to when i am feeling down?
Jus tis..
I felt like a dirt.
A irritating brat.
A Temporary shore.
A shelter against the heavy rain.
Haix..
Did anyone sae tat it's good to give and not receive?
I admire tat person man..
His attitude rox.
But does tat attitude exist in e 1st place?
Humans need love and concern.
Vice versa.
With a path or another shut down,the person will soon become a puppet.
ARgh..seems like one path of mine had been shut down.
LOng ago.
No one cares how am i feeling.
Not even at home.
No one understands.
U tink tolerantin is so fun?
try it den.
Try getting insulted numerous no of times abt ur weight,size,strengths and interest.
Show me how long can ur withstand.
My strengths had turned into my weakness.
The tolerant or optimistic nature tat i had haf turned me into an vulnerable being.
The Boon soom tat can sing,now cant tolerate critisism.
Pieces of my thoughts here and there.
I cant even sort it out.
When the aunties asked me why am i feeling so tired.
Wat can i tell them?
Will they care?..
Everyone have their own problems..
So do i.
Jus tat..
I have no idea where the problem lies.
Izzit kinship?
Friendship?
Emotions?
I am a loser.
I losed the respect tat a human being odds 2 receive.
i losed my frens.
i losed my family.
and now,i am lost..
I feel so much better 2 years back when i will always indulged myself in cyberland.
Ragnarok,diablo.
Tat's where i found my dignity.
And the freedom to choose wat i wanna do.
And where i wanna go.
And time passes by real fast.
It's better to pass my days by.
This is how a loser like me feel..
Dear God..are u there?
Lots to sae....
Sometimes,when one tries 2 help another too much.
The latter find him irritating.
Tats e unappreciative version of e story..
AIya..i feeling very frustrated now,
Jus felt like blogging,now my father scold.
ARGH!
Been complaining.
Argh.
Working life sux.
Especially at MODUSLINK.
12hrs a day!?
$53.
I am gonna faint any moment.
i regretted taking up tis bloody job.
Repeating e same action for 12 long hrs.
Wth sia.
worst of all,i haf 2 wake up 5 in e morning!
But for e sake of e money,i haf 2 be optimistic?might haf 2 turn 2 e changi job=.=
Those leaders there aint any better.
Scolding aunties who r older den them.
I pity them.
But there's realli nth i can do abt it.
Needa find a new job.
Been tahaning..
My leg hurts,my finger hurts too..
Kh's fingermail bleed.
Cant slp ytd.
Something happened at home.
again.
Haix,endless problems.
it's falling.
shld haf stayed at kun's hse instead.
Bad mood.
Sucky job,sucky siblings.
Wat more can i ask for?
life indeed,are not smooth sailing.
Thankfully,i learnt how 2 tolerate.
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Running a flu now.
Haix.
i am so kelian.
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i haf so many 2 sae,but i am suffering from a brain dead now.
Kept thinking about lots of things during these few days of work.
Haix.
Life life life.
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Pardon me for my attitude problem.
Yoooo...
Blogging at e lan shop.
So pathetic.
haha..some1 of ur shld noe why i haf 2 resort 2 blogging in a lan shop instead of at home..
Wont be blogging quite often i supposed.
I am finally gonna work.
Mon-sun,in a factory..
do some factory stuff.
I haf slacked enuf,it's time i work.
ok.gtg..
the shop's closing now.
