Sometimes, if not, all the time, things may not be as easy as it may seems, and vice-versally, things may also not be as tedious as you may think it is.
I used to dread working.
Refusing to find a job and procrastinate my way through the holidays.
Because i didnt see a need for me to work,
And most importantly, I feel that it's a waste of energy and is tedious.
I would rather slack at home and sleep for 12 hours per day.
Else, meet up with friends to slack.
But ever since i started working, all these negative mindset changed.
And thats when i realised that working, might not be that tedious afterall.
Although there are really times that i get scolded for doing something wrong.
Especially, when I am in a service line.
But ironically, they are the part and parcels of the working environment that makes it really interesting.
It's tired nonetheless, and many times, i feel so discouraged.
Money aside, but frankly,all the scoldings and discouragement shapes me to become a better person.
Each failure is just another learning experience,and a stepping stone closer to perfection.
Working has also made me realise that life will never always beds of roses.
You know, having people gossiping behind your back and judging your abilty to do work isnt appealing to me.
And meeting some demanding customer that thinks that they are always right.
Leaving us with no alternative but to give in.
All this clashes with what i believe in, and my principals.
But placing my beliefs and principal next to the customer is always right policy, its just like comparing the size of an ant, and me.
WHy? because customer pays us to do the service.
And yes, the world revolves around money.
Enough said about "i used dread working" thing
I used to think that I am good at, what i am good at.
Sometimes, i cant help but to wonder why many things happened.
I used to think that, friendship blossoms when i show my care and concern.
But failed to realise that care and concern is just one of the many pillars supporting friendship.
I used to think that if i have constant communication with a friend,
We will more or less understand each other more.
But i failed to understand that the more two person communicate, the higher the chances of the two person facing conflicts.
And and and, i used to think that we are always in full control over human relationship.
But in fact, chemistry plays a big part.
Lastly, I always thought that smiling at others will earn me one big smile back.
But i didnt know that smiling, has different forms too.
Being kind to others, dont always result in they being kind back to you.
They might, smile at you, and laugh at you behind your back, for your stupidity.
Friendship aint as simple as it always seems to me.
Some uses underhand methods to bring you down infront of other friends.
Keeping you in the dark, leaving no clues for you to even resist, nor start standing up again.
But i am still glad, to have some genuine and real friends around me.
They are no longer just good friends to me.
But they are my true friends.
On a lighter note, i was talking to this TJC girl this afternoon.
And suddenly, my mind went blank.
Heatbeat tips a beat faster.
Awww...
So here i am.
Back to basics, and back to where I've started.
No longer see the need to build up anything, since it will all tumble down when time goes by.
Maybe, i am over-rating myself.
But yet, it could be also because this is the way it is.
Lets just live by the day.
I am feeling all frustrated, angry,disappointed, depressed yet confused with life, families,friends and most importantly, myself.
They just pile up with nothing done to surpress them.
Maybe, it's just part of growing up.
Now, I have myself to company.
For i know, the only one that's true to me, is myself.
And only I, am capable of pulling me out.
For everyone has a different side.
They don't worth my trust, and vice-versa.
The biggest mistake that i ever did, was to put others before me.
Result's out!
The happy thing is...
I managed to PASS ALL the subject, despite my down utterly slacking during the 2nd term.
But the sad thing is...
I didnt do really well.
Or should I say, i did badly.
But heck, i've learnt from my mistake.
For now, i can spend the rest of my vaccasion happily, without having to go back to school to take any sub paper.
Buahahahahaha~
Just some random thoughts.
I think that common sense are accumulated from experience.
They say, we learn from experience right?
And many common sense that are known to us are actually things that we have learned sub-conciously through experience.
Hence, we shouldn't judge one person by how stupid or clever they are by how common their common sense actually is.
To make it fair for them, they are just lacking of experience to allow them to learn.
But of course there are still stupid people lah.
And it's sub-catagorized into IQs and EQs.
Like there are thosee kind of people that, you tell them 1000000 times that "it's wrong to do that", yet they still continue doing it thinking that it's correct.
That's a pinch of stubborness and one handful of stupidity.
Refusal to change, not looking at the big picture, and some haywired fuses in their mind that disable them to distinguish what's right and what's wrong.
That's what i think lah, and many may not agree to it.
Speaking of which, I think that we should practise on what we preached.
And I will do some little small reflection, again.
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Some random acts.
I search for "wikipedia" under the wikipedia website to ease my boredom.
To my surprise, there are so much to read that I instantly close the window after it successfully loaded.
And i realise, i am becoming more and more anti-social lately.
Maybe i have done more then enough communicating at work with people that i am tired of communicating.
Or maybe, i am just pretty disappointed and pissed at the same time.
Speaking of work, it has been pretty Fun.
And i kinda enjoy it.
Especially when customer actually smiled along with me.
And most importantly, when pay day comes.
So shiok.
And i am kinda of anticipating the arrival of Mr Chiu Kian Hao as he will be starting his training this coming friday. So as to ease my constant fear of communication barrier between me and my fellow malay partners.
Well, of course they are nice, but, that's just my fear lah.
And i came to realise that i am no longer expecting anything any more.
You know, changes varies.
I wont be surprise by how fast human relationship changes overtime.
No matter how hard you try to deny it, it will still get you eventually.
And even almighty KWS will still face such changes.
Although I acted like we are as close as ever, but in real fact, i felt so distant.
Which therefore, I will be even not so surprise to find friends whom i was close with before, missing.
I know that I am narrow-minded toward such things, but what can i do to change?
Contradict and consistantly brainwashing myself to make me feel better.
Not likely the best solution yea?
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On a lighter note, i have change my no, again.
But this time, it's for long term,(well at least 21 month)
93397298.
And i finally changed my phone.
phew.. after like 10 million years.
And surprisingly, i am not feeling much joy after i got my hands on the phone as compared to when i first want it.
But, that's just humans lah.
You lose interest in one thing once you finally get hold of that thing.
On a even lighter note,
I will try to update as often as i can, and of course.
Change this bloody ugly blogskin of mine.
Bye
HOORAY!!!
Tomorrow is my final paper!
muahahahahahahhahaha~~~~~~
It's a killer paper thou.
Currently, i am Sucking on a lollipop while staring at the unfamiliar CMSY lecture notes.
And praying hard that i will be able to give sensible answer in the during the paper tomorrow and hopefully, score well.
Else, just let me pass, i dont wanna take sup paper.
The long-awaited SEMESTER BREAK is finally here!
Lets relax.
Hahahahahaha,had been working closing for the past few days.
Reaching home at 6am in the morning seriously suck.
And it's all thanks to the taxi uncle for being late.
Will be working 4 days next week because our store is in need of partners.
So we are recruiting!(once again)
ha, anyone interested?
The people here are nice, and it's fun working here.
And most importantlY!
You get to work with me!
hahahahaha.
I am still waiting for kh,zl,xs and kun's reply thou.
hahahahahhahaa
Lastly, i hasnt had a decent meal for quite a few days already.
having only a chicken puff for dinner every night, and skipping lunch.
And i have no idea why is this happening.
I think that my english is getting from bad to worst.
Cant blog properly already!
Oh great.!
I am gonna have a Power-Packed thursday and it starts approximately 7hrs later.
First off, i am gonna have a WDS individual presentation.
I have done a self-evaluation on my own work and the result tells me the the chances of passing it is slim.
Simply because, firstly, my website sucks.
Secondly, I think that Ms Natasha hates me.
But i cant blame her for that because, i have gave her a really bad impression by yawning during her lectures, and not attending her lessons.
And Lastly, i submitted it late.
Which basically gives me a double confirmation that i will fail because which lecturer will help a bad student like me?
*Trembling*
Next, is my Communication skills Conversation Circle 2.
Basically we'll be doing some "arguments" within a group of six to evaluate how well our communication skills are.
Thirdly,
The submission for our Java assignment, which i am currently still doing, and our lab test.
And you know, i had been sleeping in labs and lecture.
So, passing my lab test is definitely a big problem.
Lastly, i just received a phone call and i was told that i will be working tomorrow night.
So, everyone,please bless me.
Britain got talent- Connie
Aww.. she is SOOOO adorable is blessed with such sweet voice!
Had been listening to this over and over again for the past one hour!
It sends me goosebumps all over.
Ahhh..I was so unlucky yesterday!(it's the 4th now)
My unlucky spree started even the official lunar 7th month.(I made a mistake when i said that the ghost door has opened, pai seh!:p)
First off, i woke up at 11.30am and found out that my only black pant was still in the washing machine and i was only left with 30mins to prepare for school.
So, i just heck care, took out the wet pants and hung it outside the window.
After preparation, it was already 11.55am, and as i was about step out of my house
I had a stomach ache!!!
I quickly went to the toilet, did my business and rushed to school.
Thankfully, i wasn't late.(that was probably the only good thing that happened)
Next, i bought a bar of snickers, and for the FIRST time, half of it fell on the floor while i was in ITAS.
I had no choice, but to buy another bar.
School ended, and i was rushed to work.
I missed my bus and waited for like 1/2 hr for the pathetic express bus.
To pile up to that, PIE jammed!
And i was late for work for 1 hr!
That was not the end,
I screwed myself during work.
Spilling lots of things and getting all the order mixed up.
I was feeling so apologetic, and kept thinking about all the accidents, and i got MORE orders wrong.
Argh, and the kind manager didnt even blamed me for that, and kept asking whether am i alright.
Following these, i almost got knock over by a car when i was crossing the road!
Totally shit shit shit.
And while taking a cab home after work.
I forgot to ask for the bloody receipt.
Which means that i cant claim that bloody $15 from company.
Ahhh....
And now, i cant get to sleep, because i had my biological clock all mixed up!
This unlucky spree didnt started just yesterday, it started a few days ago.
Unluckiness never leaves me, instead it loves me so much that it just comes attacking me so frequently.
When will this spree ever end...!!!
Please end this before this week, or i cant imagine what will happen if i unluckily,failed to submit my final drawing, and final webpage, and unluckily, failing two subjects at one go.
Please please please.
Blesss me. for i might just die any moment.
I am feeling all shitty now
