When night falls....

Hello people.With effect from NOW. This blog will NO LONGER be in use.:)


I have however,SHIFTED to


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And you can check out my updates there.

Till then:)

Oh yes... Before i go to bed, let me just share a creepy and spooky experience that i had in the morning since its the first time i have one in my entire life.

Just so you know, i am currently working in buona vista as a intern, and what i have to do everyday, is to wait for my supervisor to give me a miscellenous exercises to do. But anyway, earlier on this morning, i was doing my work as usual, and then i started to feel super sleepy and restless. But obviously, i couldn't lie down and sleep there and then, so i decided to go to the staff lounge for a power nap, and since i always have my nap there after lunch with my one collegue, i didn't see why i shouldn't take my nap there anyway.

The lounge was empty at that point of time, quiet at the same time, but that was the least the concern of a sleepy man. And "BumP!" i went straight to one of the sofa and started sleeping sideways, to reassure that no one will see me, i chose the sofa with the back facing the door.

And as i was sleeping, i felt a constant tapping and rubbing on my upper shoulder(Since i was sleeping sideways) and it woke me up as i thought it was my supervisor who had come and catch me. I thought "Wa cham, must faster wake up already". And with my eye half-opened, i tried to sit straight up.
And just like any other spooky experience that you have heard, or would have expected it, yes, i couldn't move at all.
It continually tapped me for a few mins, i couldn't remember, before it went away. i jerked up immediately after it left took a look at my watch, and realize that only 5mins have passed.

And strangely, i felt as thou half an hour has passed, and i was feeling very energetic after that.

I didn't think much, and went back to my office to continue my work after that..


Mindtricks maybe?
Dreaming?

Or secret admirer? haha.
I don't know, but i choose to believe that it meant good since it only benefit me and nothing else.


And *yawn* i am sleepy already.
Shall blog again.


Lastly, i am not russell leee.

Ever been on a crowded bus when you start hearing the bus uncle asking the passengers to move to the rear of the bus?

I always do, especially during these past 2 weeks. And it got me frustrated each time, to see the inproportion spread of people on the bus where the front is always more crowded then the back. People refuses to move, I don't know why, thus making the bus look packed.
Laziness perhaps? Or should I say it's pure self centeredness. Imagine they are they one who is still outside waiting to board the bus. Don't think they will behave as ignorant and lazy as they do then.

As for me, I will delibrately squeeze my way through. Don't care if I bump into them anot.

Hello.... i went to the zoo last saturday.








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And i was pecked by a DAMN PELICAN!

For more pictures you can view them by clicking the following links.

Jia Yi
Cheng Yong
Valerie
Nadiah

Or my facebook. hahaha

We actually took a total of.. some 400 photos? cos there were 4 different cameras and each uploaded about 100 photos. omg....

And i think that i am more into twitter/facebook than on blogging because it allows me to share what i wanna share immediately. But nevertheless, i will try to blog whenever i can, as often as if i can get any inspiration or should i feel like emoing....hahahhaa

So in any case that you might wanna keep updated about me...Muahahahaha.

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Currently in my 2nd week of internship, all is well, except that sleeping and waking up early is never my cup of tea.... The job assigned to me is pretty challenging and taxing to my mind, but the pros of it is that it makes time passes faster.




And lastly.... even as i am thinking about what to write for sign off.
I stumbled upon this two sentences.

"As much as i wanna fulfill my destiny in God, i am a teenager too, and i need my fair share of fun as well."

And...

"Don't be fickle-minded, be focused, all is worth, you can do all things remember?"


man, now i get all confused.

She suffocated him, then tried to take her own life but boyfriend saved her

By K.C. VIJAYAN
July 11, 2009
ON THE night she wanted to kill herself and her son, Kang Kah Li, a 38-year-old divorcee, fed him sedatives and he kissed her good night. After Tan Eu-Jin, 12, went to bed, she bound his wrists and also his ankles together with red ribbons.

She later drove the ends of a towel up his nostrils, pressed his nose shut and stuffed part of the same towel into his mouth.

Although his eyes were closed, he struggled but soon fell still.

Kang then swallowed 50 tablets meant for treating high blood pressure, cut her right wrist and decided to call her boyfriend.

It was that call made well past 1am on May 16 last year that set in motion a chain of events that saved her life. But her son's was already lost.

On Friday, she was found to have been mentally unstable at the time of the murder and jailed seven years. Kang had pleaded guilty to a charge of culpable homicide not amounting to murder in the High Court.

She was in tears as Justice Chan Seng Onn said he passed the sentence 'with a heavy heart' and described the case as 'unfortunate and tragic'.

He said the greater pain for Kang lay not in the jail term, but in the fact that her only child died by her hand. He noted that all she was left with now were 'fond memories' of the boy.

She committed the offence in the Toa Payoh Lorong 2 flat she shared with her parents and son. It was the night before she was due to show up in court to face forgery charges.

Week one of sip has officially ended, and damn, it's really tiring and taxing for both my mind and body.

Have been stuck on my progress in work for the past 3 days, and still racking my brain on it.. It has Drained up most of my braincells for the entire day and I still have tuition to teach after work. Student is having her psle really soon an there is no way I can postpone any of the tuition to any other day. On top of all these, the back to back schedule and refrained me from having my dinner as well, hasn't had proper dinner for the past 3 days cos there is simply No time for me to have it.

But thank God, I stood to my resolution to go jogging, and I guess that kind of perks me up a little and prevented me from dozing off during work now.

Due to some random boreness, i went bloghopping only to realize that no one is updating their blog anymore!!
So my boredom tells me to look through their past entries instead since there isn't any current entry for me to browse anyway, it was pleasant, reminiscing those good old days.
So, i thought that i should give my old blog a visit as well.

And God, to my horror....


I almost puked(not literally) while reading through it.
And there I was wondering....

WHY DID PEOPLE STILL READS MY BLOG THEN.?
What.... its not interesting, non beneficial, and most importantly, wordy and emo.
Or you were waiting to see when will i finally announce that i am going to commit suicide?

Freak, what an utmost disgrace i was.
But it was fun to browse through what you thought was important and interesting then when you were blogging it.

Just a sneak preview......

"its been a week since i blogged...so fast get sian already...
haix..alot of unhappy things happen..actually nt unhappy things ar..jus small things which i feel its rather sad for me..in sch, at home..claudia sae i very scary, got split personality..actually,my mood jus swings for the extreame..i dunno whether 2 be quiet or noisy,but being quiet"

What the hell!
To think that i felt nothing wrong about it then.
AND HOW COME IT WAS SO EASY FOR ME TO DESCRIBE WHATEVER THAT HAPPENED THEN?

Well, people grow. grow. grow.


On a totally irrelevant note, up your service workshop tomorrow, followed by napha...
Have to wake up at... 8am. woah.
And I will be starting on my SIP internship the following week. The anxiety level is 50/50.

Birthdays never fails to amplify and magnify the level of friendships you have with others.

This is my belief. Used to be, and always be.

Some celebrates and wishes you out of obligation, some out to return the favour, some out of convenience...many many reasons, but while some, they just don't care.

But i am glad i have people who really honor it, or rather, just me.:)

Thank you.:)

I must get used to having only 6 hours of sleep since starting 4 July, it's gonna be super duper packed for me, hectic at the same time.

8.30 to 6 every Monday to friday. This will mean 3 hours of travelling back and forth if I am travelling from my own place. Have to wake up at 6 every day and back in tampines at only 7.30..

On Monday, Wednesday and friday, I will have to give 2 hours of tuition. Which means that my day will probably ends at around 10.

Packed on thurs sat for cellgroup and ministry and Sunday afternoon for service. Leaving only Tuesday for myself, and probably Sunday late afternoon.

On top of all these, since it's already so hectic, I am also tryin to gain back my mometume in jogging since I had slacken alot recently. It's either I will jog at 10 like how I used to every time, or I will wake up at 5 to jog. Well, it will all depends, but I seriously want to do this.

God give me strength and grace!

What's the point of asking when at the back of your mind, you have no intention of doing it?

Certainly doesn't feel good for me to be taken advantage of on a regular basis.

Different people expect different things out of their life.

To some, they prefer to party all night long, to another group of people, they prefer to spend it with their family and friends and the list goes on.(workoholic, shopperholic, blah blah blah)

My point is.... does it means that if you don't agree to that lifestyles certainly makes the lifestyle that you are leading better?

No.

Well of course, there are definitely a need for people to step in to a person's life when they realized that that person is simply wasting their time away, but even so, you just can't come into his life, prosecute him and then force him to follow whatever you think its right.
As a friend, encouragement and persuasion is the key, and at the end of the day, if the latter still prefers the life that he is leading, so be it, do you judge him?
No. thats not a friend.

I get provoked when people judge me when they don't see anything on the apparent.
Doesn't mean you don't see it, means i am not doing anything.

I seriously feel that school is a waste of my time....and a reason for me to gain weight.

Taking Modules that are totally unnecessary, and when i say this, i don't mean that its useless, but that the modules that we are taking this term have overlapping syllabus which we already learnt in previous semesters.

Also....Going to lab lessons which are totally non beneficial.
Imagine attending a 3hours lab, and all you do is to read worksheets online and try to figure out how to do the work attached to it. and when you meet with some problem, the lecturer don't know how to solve it. Then you get all bored, and you decides to go down to the canteen to get some snacks, then for the rest of the lab lesson, your stuck, and ended up facebooking and nothing else.

Most tormenting term ever.!!!

Anyway, i had this interesting and weird dream earlier on in the afternoon.

I dreamt that i was watching a movie with a group of people, then suddenly, the narration of the movie started to go out of point and irrelevant, so in my dreams, i went to complain to the management of the cinema and theysolve it. But the problem happened repeatedly, like 8times, and i demanded a compensation.. i remembered clearly that i even told the person like "whats the point of me paying so much when i cannot enjoy the full luxury and story of the movie?"
And just as i was about to blow my top, i woke up.

Only to realize that the irrelevant narration from my dreams was actually from the show that was playing on the teevee, i fell asleep in the living room you see....
And it happens that my ears was still awake then. haha.

Its amazing how time flies, i still remember how hard it was for me to adapt to the new environment that i was in by oftenly(i mean... occasionally) emo-ing on my previous blog ranting on how tough poly life is and how i missed secondary school days. It took me quite some time(really long time) to get over the fact that i had to move on. Thou it was rather unwillingly, i had no choice do i?

Likewise, school is reopening in 12 hours time now, and here i am, still refusing to accept the fact that i am already in my senior year, looking back, i kind of regretted wasting my 2 years in poly away, especially when the school fees is at least 100 times more expensive then secondary.
Apart from achieving only marginal results, i also missed out quite alot on the other additional things that was going on in school, namely, camps, ccas and external projects.

You must be wondering why i am having all these regrets out of the blue, its because i was inspired by the talk by the director of IIT school during the freshman orientation camp.

I was telling the freshies how privledged there were to have the director coming down personally to respective LTs to talk to them, back then, we could see her on "TV", which was actually a video of her giving a speech.
And of course, apart from the setting of the video, i couldn't remember a single thing that she said.

Back to what she had said, she told the freshies that they have now a empty basket, and its up to them now what they want to be in that basket in 3 years time. She also mentioned about the only person to write the story of your life is you. or some sort related.

So yeah, there i was silently agreeing to what she said. Its indeed so true.....

To be continued. Writers block.

I will wack anyone who tells me again on how getting drunk and high can be so distressing and good. Stop cheating me can....I find absolutely no similarity nor likeness between my experience and this false impression. Instead, I felt terribly wasted,guilty and terrible to an extend that i promised myself, never to get drunk again in the midst of my drunkness.

I have always wanted to get drunk(Yes, because i Heard that it feels good) so, i always try to drink alot whenever there is a chance to do so, chalet, bbq, gatherings and outing. you name it. But because of my high tolerance for alcoholic drinks, i was never really close to getting drunk even thou i was always the biggest drinker among my friend.

So i smart alec lah, drank chivas shots, mixtures, vodka shots and red wine like there was no tomorrow. And there i was, acting perfectly normal and tried to send selig to the busstop. But thank God that i was stopped by PS and mich after several persuasion, because the alchohol took effects moments after he left, and thou i was sober and aware of what was happening around me, i had no control of my limps. God knows what will happen should i had see him down then.

I started to be pretty unconcious, yet sober at the same time. I went to the toilet wanting to shit. and shit happened when i was in there. i was shitting half way through, and i vomited all over the toilet floor, and good gracious, i semi-conciously tried to clear up, but knocked onto the walls several times, then i accidently broke his toilet seat, walked into the shower room of his toilet, took the shower head, wanted to wash myself up, but to no avail. Realizing that the toilet door was locked, i bearingly made it through that few torturous steps, opened the door, let ps in, and back to the shower room. and poom, i slammed onto the floor and that was it, i was totally strengthless, yet feeling helpless cos my pants was soiled with vomit. PS of course, came in only after i closed the shower room door, and there i was, pantless, strengthless and helpless. I even tried to pray to God that he will grant me strength to get out of the toilet, but i guess God's reply was that i deserve it for acting like a hero. That was when i promised, never to get drunk again.
And i slept my night, sleeping in the toilet. And in the midst of it, i kept apologizing to PS who was helping me to clear up my vomit cos i was really feeling very guilty.

Terrible hangover the next day, and realized that my handphone drowned with my pants. thank God PS's hairdryer saved its life.

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I find it really frustrating on the fact that i cannot multi-task, period.
For people who knows me when i am doing something, i won't get distracted, it will take umpless effort to try and get my attention. Be it when it comes to talking to a friend, using the com, watching the tv, doing my work, thinking and mediating or simply dazing.
And the frustrating part, when i sleep, i go into a state of deep sleep, alarms can't wake me up, it will take lots of effort for the alarm to get my attention, because i will be concentrating on sleeping then. HA.
I need to be able to multi-task for nuts, cos i am already not very efficient. And moreover, people complained that i am dao. and others are already thinking that i am not approachable.

ITS SO NOT TRUE.


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I was so boiling mad this morning, and it was really up my neck, for people who know me long enough, you should have never seen me mad before. and yes i am positive about this when i am typing this, But today, i really couldn't controlled myself, that i gave a really scary stared which i feel that its really the scariest that i had ever gave to anyone and together with it, i also raised my voice.:(
Kids are getting cleverer and more stubborn these days.
It is getting tougher. But thank God for sweet kids around. they made my day:).

And oh ya, i got to know this guy of my age today, and i tell you. He is from VJC and scored 9A1 and 1A2 for his O's and 6As for his A's. I chatted with him and realized that he is not a mugger, and the technique he taught me is, to "just understand the foundation."
He further on telling me that he had 3 ccas in school back then and never really studied.
There i was, wishing that i was half as clever, or rather, half as excelling as he did back in school.


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School is reopening on the week after next, and how time flies... i hasn't got myself a temp job. but my holiday was still, filled with things from back to back. Very taxing, but worth it.:):)
Having Orientation camp next week, but the question now still revolves around whether is my position in the camp still secured.
Otherwise, i need to sleep more for the whole of next week, and i need to meet up my friends!!!


And like any other post, i need to watch my spendings...
Most importantly, my workout, i need to stick to it,!!!

JAZZ AND PS.

"Impacting and sowing into people's life one at a time."
I realized that i whatever that we do, its not just about ME, that tells OTHERS how successful you are, its about how many OTHERS, that tells YOU, how important and impactful you have been.


Long and windy post. Good job to you if you made it this far.:)

Was looking through the old pics that wei lun uploaded yesterday, and wow, i was pretty amazed, amused and entertained by those old pics. Its really funny to see how people behaved and looked at different phrases of their life.
And i seriously think i looked really frail in those pics with very bad hair condition, slight fatter then now, and terrible skin condition. Totally hideous.
Can you believe it? its only 1 or 2 odd years ago.

The pics are in random order.



























P.S: I will try to blog more often, thou i don't really know who still reads this forsaken blog now,*hint hint hint*(tag more often lah) but i promised, once i get my inspiration and motivation back, i will be back.

Till then.

Alamak wasaba pilabala aibupa ai bu ai bu.............................


I am trying to make myself feel better ok????????????


I am still cool!

AIyeh.

Sometimes... I need my attention as well.. Not the outer, but the inner.

Alright.